wadshappengtome

2009-04-03T18:09:00.006+08:00

buying tie dan and instant noodles at supermarket!!!

makaning non stop at shilin..

sinful road side stalls at ximenting

visiting shop selling starfruit drink.. (u noe why of cuz haha)

thrilling ride up the mountains with the owner (who owns 2 mountains and a strip of land (",)

part of one of the mountains he own

trying bitter plums, fresh and unprocessed from the trees

having a meal close to nature

waiting for our meal to start!

a must try at re yue hu there: red sweet potato pastry (hong shu bing)

me n the best tour guide in the world aka history textbook!

lalu island

chooo chooooo

taking in the sights kwith a nice boat ride

starfruit orchard!

aint it big and juicy??

grape and starfruit spirit!!! sung!

cant wait to eat it!

883 2nd annivesary at st james

me n jaron

me qinkai jaron and guangjun after our performancethe four belles of 883?

charlene and me!

dejiang, dun complain tat i onli take pics wif chiobu k

kaiying!

huiping!!!

its been a busy and hectic month for me.. trip to taiwan, performance at st james, preparing for xinyao concert at munchies monkey ytd and meeting school deadlines.. loads of thgs to do.. its getting close to exams.. have been doing well for my midterms in general.. but got below average for one 25% paper.. looks like realli must still bia all the way lo!!!!

recently have been attending a sciology class.. the lecturer says that we are consumed by capitalism.. there is actually a group of aborogines in Australia which just travel around the land and seek to connect with nature.. they harvest whatever they can find along the way and only use teir meetings with other people or seasons as an indicator of time that have passed.. yet here we are.. struggling with doing more work in lesser time.. and even feeling guilty when we even wanna just sleep or play abit more.. leisure time and rest is once mandatory, yet like my lecturer says, to many of us, all tat perhaps matter now is money or results..

So.. i guess its a gd thing that i have been performing and going for competitions and what not.. dun think i have much more time or chances to do these things.. whats more, i might not even et to stay in temasek hall next year as i dun have enough hall points.. if only i was like indispensable in some sport or somethg.. but my cultual director melissa say she will help me la.. so.. hope i can continue to perform.. n i guess i might join voices nxt year..

2dae is fridae!!!! and i refuse to do any work tonight!!! haha

2008-03-28T02:13:00.002+08:00

shifted my blog to http://www.wadshappengtome2.blogspot.com/ =) frm now on this will be my lyrics archive... will add my lyrics soon! =)

2008-03-20T17:33:00.005+08:00

me n dear at ikea!!! =)
our dream minimalist bedroom! =)
WE LOVE TH!!! tho i hate it sometimes hahaha
hongyi caught digging nose!!! hahaha
hard at work..

random pokka ad due to boredom =p

maria at work hahha, just kidding la, thanx dear =)

have been so bz tat i have had no time to blog... but 2dae is the xinyao external concert.. after this i shld have some breather from hall stuff... but there are 2 deadlines next week and another test the following week... next week ill also start work at the tuition agency... looking forward to the money... haaha...then can bring dear... (YES! NOT HUIHUANG) to go n have a great meal... i might buy xiong a chicken wing tho! haaha (cuz he not as gredy as someone + looking at xiong eat chicken wings is inspiring man!!)... hahahaa

i think its realy gettg hard to have fun and unique dates... singapore is really kindof petite... hahaha... so last week, after some intense brainstorming... i decided to have diner wif cherylene at ikea, then take pictures of all the furniture that we like then we wil draw and design our future home's bedroom.. havent hadtime to draw a proper one and colour it though... hahaha

TH open hse... loking at all the young kids asking wad hostel life is abt... and whether hostel life is fun.. i did my best to give an objective opinion.. yup... an experience that u cant get once ya leave uni... but a fun but nonetheless taxing lifestyle... but no regrets for me la, ytd won 100 bucks at some hall organised singg contest.. waahahha

time to go n perform now!!! hmmm, i wish dear u will be there... but may ya meetg be smooth sailing!!! =)

2008-03-17T20:47:00.002+08:00

went to a tuition agency 2dae... got a job as a tutor... its at yew tee though... pros and cons i think... cuz its kindof far... but the management there seems very sincere and friendly... aniwaes, tuition pay will always beat any other part time jobs i can find outside so... yup, so guys, my wednesdays and thrsdays will most prob be gone...

n she even jio me to tach creative writing for sat mornings 830 to 1... but that is like the standard slot for us to bball... in fact the onli slot cuz I dun realli play on fridays animore... so... my dear JY, X n HH, shld i take up the sat job???

more money, less time to study and paktor n bball.. if onli i was richer, haha... hope i can ged a scholarship soon!

2008-03-13T17:03:00.002+08:00

grilled fish...
fritters, grilled prawns and beefball soup...
cherylene thinking abt her life ahead?
nice pic???
attempt to create an advertisment like photo...

the indonesian food featured above is damn gd!!! lucky plaza... HH, X and JY, lets go there soon k??? hopefully there will be MORE pple joining us soon compared to that day we played pool!!! wahahaa...

this week is super hectic... 2 tests, TH bazaar and open hse... no room to breathe man... hahaha... n i understand the pain of computing students... cuz the test that i took was inhumanly possible to finish... 8 structured qns in like 50mins man... tink i might haveta SU it man... RAHHHH... wads the pt of giving tests that students cant do??? So tat hu does more gets A??? aka hu writes faster maybe? sigh

Aniwae... i realli need to KTV soon... n maybe ill go this sunday wif cherylene!!! dun say bojio k... i write here liao... but HH sure say bz wan so... hmm... beak for a week b4 deadlines again... n nxt week theres a concert... think ill besingg one song... 10 bucks to watch concert, eat buffet (includes spaghetti in the menu) and drinks... interested pple tell me k???

Me and cher r ok now... n i guess the issue is resolved... so... ate at astons grill at PGP ytd and played nintendo WII... cooking mama boy, hahah... roll dough, beat eggs, use microwave... had fun.. cant wait to try the dragonball wan where we can use the wii sticks to fight and chu gui pai qi gong... may gd days follow... cognitive psyche... lets hope i do well in this one... JIAYOU!!!!! ROAR

2008-02-28T13:29:00.003+08:00

cherylene's frens say they cant click wif me... supposedly i have no situational awareness, is not very gentlemanly, have a poor sense of humour and speaks lousy english.. they ask her "does he always go dutch wif u?" i really tried to treat hem like frens but from the bottom of my heart, i realli start to feel that its qte naive for me to treat them as my frens... listening to one of them when she broke up wif her bf.. thinking of another of her fren n calling to offer to dapao supper when i was at sheares... or even offering to open the tightly closed cockles at prawn fishing til my nails hurt.. i think all these are not gonna get them to see me as a fren... i thnk perhaps i shld work on my english n how i carry myself perhaps?

wads most disturbing is that cherylene is very upset by wad they think.. n everytime we quarrel its reali more or less abt me doing like somethg wrong in front of her frens... wrong.. haha... evn that i do not realli noe whether i realli did smethg wrong or not.. was studyg my psyche textbook... one of the effective ways of couple therapy is IBCT, to teach the couple not to make changes but to be les critical and more accepting...

end of the day, i noe i have my flaws.. but im very sure i have qualities many guys might lack which i think r the more important attributes for having a long lasting relationship... i guess ill work on my flaws.. end of the day, i feel cherylene being so upset about her frens' views of me is realli doing lots of damage to this relationship.. if it goes on, im not even sure i can take it...

in any case, if a relationship has to end because my gf is upset by a bunch of superficial frens, i guess all i can do is look back n just laugh it off.. i hope tat day wun come cuz i feel... such a nice gf.. n in many ways compaitable.. being lost this way will be the most stupid thg i have ever allowed to happen to me... sigh =(

2008-02-25T00:29:00.003+08:00

antique shop called grandfather's treasures...
interestg poster... that was funny!!
a closeup...
a photo that cherylene created using her sony phone photodj

morroco cafe...
tea with peppermint leaves!!
all sorts of coke cans at grandfather's treasures...
super lots...
n even bottles too!!!

arabic restaurant at bali lane... romantic getaway!!
2nd floor, all carpeted n looking arabic
cherylene threateng to kill wof a knife
asking me why im taking photos of her again hahaa
me zhipai!!!! RRAAHHHH

cher n me went to arab street!!! n its amazing how interestg thgs there are... all the arabic stuff... and shops... like the one i went to... grandfather's treasures... damn cool... all the ancient looking phone, fridge and watches... then there is the super cool coke collection.... hahaha... amazing!!! n there were many exotic cafes there to explore too!! me n dear had this super nice pot of tea wif peppermint leaves at onli 2.50!!! steady la... will come back n try their food.. onli 6plus hahaha...

after that we went to this arabic looking restaurant to chill at night... the decor, the music... pple smoking seesha... carpeted, warm yellow lights, lots of cushion wif a few tables n no chairs at all... nice!!! next time we will try the food there too!! hehehe...

aniwaes... gotta go n mug now!!! RRRAAAAHHHHH

2008-02-23T14:10:00.002+08:00

2dae me, HH, xiong n JY played in the engine fac 3 on 3 bball... the rules suck big time.. each team has onli 6 fouls in 15 mins and when 6 fouls is up, they automatically lose 1 player... aniwae, the rules suck but we sucked even more, we lost al 4 games in which we played in.. hmm.. i hope we can improve la... cuz having 2 very tell pple, 188 and 194cm, to lose the way we did was... i just felt we cld have done better la... as for me, i think i did ok la... but the last game my morale was rock bottom.. haha, so... sorry guys...

ytd i had a meeting that stretched from 10pm-4am... and its amzing how people make silly comparisons between committees that are of different nature... in some sense, if we watch a dance for 15mins and 3 persons singg 3 songs for 15mins... can u safely say that the former or latter is more or less entertaining??? the backstage crew for jay chou's concert might set up all the props for the concert and while that is definitely more tedious than jay chou singg, does that mean they shld earn more than jay chou? the whole objective is jay's ability to entertain n tats where his big pay checks are justified.. if singg 4 songs a year dun deserve so much pts, its realli nt a very sound judgement la in some sense... but i cldnt fight for them too la, cuz the head, which was my close fren, realli din put in enuf effort =(

one week holidae... but i guess, its the beginning of mugging... n pls, temasek hall, i need some time to study, thanx

2008-02-22T13:45:00.002+08:00

failed drivng today... failed until very jialat that kind...

siiibbbaaaeeee sian... but life has to move on n its not like me to just surrender...

aniwaes, bball competition 2ml, hpe thgs will get better...

cap 3.8, XQRJ lost, driving fail... lets hope thgs take an upturn, haha

chill.. thgs will get better!!! rARRAHHHH!!! =)

2008-02-16T17:36:00.006+08:00

portebello mushrooms grilled!!! natural and nice!!! =)
oxtail stew, a foster's speciality
mixed grill!!!
a glowing n radiany cherylene haha

foster's cottage deco..
night view...
me n cher before watchg P.S i love u..
beautiful candlelights..

a super nice n ancient lamp for my vdae pressie! =)
my vdae card! tat looks like cherylene =P
the board game i made for cherylene...
Hmm.. will we reach the last milestone? hope so! =)

outfield kimchi noodles!!!
our cosy 10bucks 2 men tent from carrefour
hard work made the noodles all the much nicer..

vdae dinner at east coast!!!

stingray... HH, saliva dripping??
the remains after a massacre...
me n cher at east coast before camping!!! =)

14th was vdae and 15th was cher's bdae... for vdae i got a super cool lamp that was like ancient, which cher spent hrs hunting for... one of its kind from japan which she bought from an ah pek... n being sooo understanding, cherylene suggested eating at east coast hawker to escape the crowd and the throat cutting prices of restaurant.. hmm.. however, we did not escape the crowd... but the the 30 bucks of stingray, hum, satay beehoon, chicken wings, gong gong and coconut juice was... my best vdae dinner ever!!! hahaha

after tat we went outfield!!! pitch tent, cook noodles and played the board game i made for cherylene... throw the dice, move across ur relationship milestones past n future, draw 'sorry', 'thank you' and 'action cards' to advance or move back! i had fun! hope u loved the game too dear.. =) wanted to watch the sunrise but.. hahaha.. we overslept...

watched P.S i love you on cher's bdae... nice but sad show la... but i loved it.. after tat we had a super gd n reasonably atas dinner at the english rose cafe.. the food was gd though but i realli missed out important elements of a bdae celebration... which ill remember and make better next time!! so sorry again dear.. **hHuuGgzzZ**

eventful thursdae and fridae... =) my happoest vdae ever, hahaha.. n more pictures on facebook! =)

2008-02-13T01:49:00.000+08:00

monday.. project meeting, then realised that another module's 1000 word term paper is due on tuesday... wrote from 7pm to 4am... wake at 10 to do referencing... after that go meet beetin and gang to lao yu sheng.. rushed back for meeting but arrived late cuz i overslept on the bus... vetted JCRC documents and realised my heads made lots of mistakes... did up my prep for presentation on thursday.. gonna sleep soon.. mock PAB, JCRC meeting 2ml night for at least 3 hrs i think.. thursday valentines, friday dear's bdae before going back hall at night again for mock PAB 2..

fly here fly there everywhere fly fly... siam here siam there still thiok jiao sai... so frustrated i feel like scolding JEEEEEEE _______ !!!!

hahaa.. alrite guys, BYE!!!! =P

2008-02-05T00:45:00.000+08:00

the pple hu tided me over my crisis.. from left: david, me, daniel, mark n marriane
the pple hu were there to provide support in case i was in a crisis..

1 week to the competition and david realised thta we cld not get any instrumentalists.. "Daniel Xia! can help me play drums or not???" **looking hungry and angsty** "ok".. "mark?? can help me play bass on sunday? u need to paktor?" " anythg for u man, steady BBB".. "marrianne, keyboard... help me?" "er... i check schedule first... ok lo" thanx guys though u might not even read this entry... thanx!!! true frens... =)

linjie n elaine came.. both woth a guy.. hopefully they are hapily attached... cuz i am.. haha.. was quite nervous that day but cherylene met e to pass me her lucky charm n somethg that she made for me.. wrote some stuff n, yup tats to secret of cuz =P.. reali felt less nervous after readg n holding it.. got bombarded by the judges for my singing.. but i received sms from HH saying i am the best n i did great.. then we went supper after the whole thg.. n even had some tsingtao beer that taste like water, haaha..

for all those hu came, i reali thank all of u guys for being there for me though din win anythg at all.. n for those hu forgot n din come.. abit of anger that faded into a tinge of sadness and disappointment..

my last XQRJ.. yup.. SPOP... maybe u will like my songs better?? =)

2008-02-03T10:33:00.000+08:00

lights outside temple
super nice looking temple that looks like a castle
bustling activity in chinatown
durian ice kacang!! SHIOK

chinatown is damn fun seriously... i went this wek on tuesday.. but onli had time to blog now... as i told all my frens, they throw food at u n when u try n never buy, they still smile and thank you... cuttlefish, mushroom, jelly, peanuts, guae zhi, eat til i felt qte full withot even having t eat dinner... then we ended the night tryg to find this ice kachang and it was like damn shiok man... the durian is... woohhoooo.. n u realli gotta listen to the funny thgs that the chinatown vendors shout... damn funny man... i shld have videoed it down n blog it...

2dae is the finals.. hope nothg screws up n at least if we put in our best and we lost, it will still be a happy ending i guess.. beetin will be back soon.. HH finally bringg kenyee out.. though still in school.. n cherylene will hear me sing.. jiangyuan listening to me on stage for the first time as an audience!! but janice is... hope everythg turns out well...

thanks to all thosethat are coming... din remind those hu forgt cuz, yup, i felt i shldnt have...

jiayou weiliat!!!

2008-01-28T10:00:00.000+08:00

waraku at central!
nice toilet hahah

brewerkzzzz.. i love golden ale
so much cld actualli be dug out by cherylene...
when there was onli like so little left???!!!

clarke quay!! cher wif her new bag! =)
brewerkzzz again
breweerrrrkkkkzzzzz aggggaaaiiinnn hahhahaa

they say a picture says a htousand words... 2dae wld be a gd day... cuz i realise i very lazy to type...

bball later!!! yay!!!! n FEB 3rd... RRRAAHHHHHH!!! hahhaa

2008-01-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

super fun evening wif cher.. eat n eat n eat.. a gf that eats as much as me or even more than me, so that i can order a greater variety of food when i eat... yet she exercises to keep in reasonable shape.. n is willing to even exercise wif me.. n hence increases the variety of stuff we can do 2gether.. shiok! hahaa

but somethg cher said made me perturbed.. in some sense i do see cher's frens as my close frens but somehow i feel like to them, i am not really their fren but just cher's bf.. so.. maybe i shld distant myself abit from them? more contact might mean more mistakes in some sense n if im like just "cher's bf", im not so sure they will be forgiving...

so.. maybe i shld just behave like cher's bf towards cher's best frens? as for my frens, hope u guys see cher as ya own fren =)

2008-01-21T16:19:00.000+08:00

cher!
me! haha

JINLONG 2 hahaha

went to the beach wf cher on fridae!!! n dimsum buffet... a great day man, thanks alot to the sun for being obliging to our prayers... its just damn shiok to lie on the sand and waste time away... we were really damn scared it will rain cuz we really postponed this for like a million times le man...RAAAHhh.. n sentosa on a weekday is really pleasant cuz there isnt much crowd... n 2 guys trying to pick up 2 angmoh chais is hmmm... amusing, hahahaa.. cher was like:" OMG, they are not even cute lo" hahaha

aftre tat bball wif HH n X.. hmm.. xiong n HH r eally getting better and better!!! if onli JY improves too hahaha... as for me.. o well, my duty is not to score when HH n X is on form so ill tryta perfect my screening techniques n timings... n make shots when necessary... sat oso bball, really felt quite tired, haha... hmm... but on sat i learnt a new technique to get away from a screen, cuz when i set up one, the person i screened kept using his knee to nudge my... erm... hahaa... gd technique, haha

tats all folks! n hope engjoe does become an actor someday hahaha

2008-01-18T03:21:00.000+08:00

had a meetg 2dae... n was told that i have hall meetings on 14th and 15th... fought damn hard to change it but... realli dun think its gonna work... 14th feb is valentine's... and 15th is cher's bdae... n im her like first bf... when i told her abt the meetings n tat i wld try my best to change the dates... she just said," dear, its ok... i dun want them to think ya r irresponsible.." then she smiled.. yet i cld still sense her being upset.. n i really felt damn bad..

2dae afternoon she asked me if i wld stop findg her attractive... yet that smile.. n that reply.. made her the most beautiful gal ive ever seen..

very very touched.. very

2008-01-16T11:43:00.000+08:00

me n cher wif sam's bdae jelly!!!
Sam's best bdae surprise... EVER!!! hahhaa

david on the drums during recording...
mummy in a candid shot!!!
me n cher
me n cher.... 2!!! haha

this video stars engjoe, my cousin... this happened when another cousin of mine ket calling him jinlong, saying that he looks like li nan xing... so... i shot a small mtv for him... told him to strike a pose then leave a toothpick in his mouth like jinlong like tat hahaha...

wnet out wif cher ytd... eat lunch, caught a movie, steamboat at bugis... F lah, no luncheon meat again!!! cuz the other stall had a super long queue... GRRRRRR.. headed back 2 hostel n wasted time doing nonsense like trying to tickle each other and see hu cannt take it first.. hahaha... life's simple pleasures...

2dae met samantha for lunch wif cher!!! damn happy!!! she was one of the interns that worked wif us during my stint at MCYS.. n her fren suddenly popped by n said happy bdae!!! cher said we shld get her a drink so i bought her fruit juice.. but i felt this was not enuf... so... staring at the jap food jelly, i was suddenly inspired.. i took 3 toothpicks, n made them into "candles" n pierce into the jelly... then sam had to make a wish and blow the "candles" until they fell from the jelly.. hahahaa... it cant get more fun than this but oh man, we shld have taken a video!!! hahaha

its a tough sem ahead but WTF, i will strive to pull my cap up!!!! RROOOOOAAARRRRR!!!! =)

2008-01-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

a random picture that i took 2dae... =)

met for k lunch in town.. was fun!!! watched blueberry nights directed by wong kar wei... i kindof liked the show.. but i just somewhat fekt that it can be even better... the actors and actresses were great though... n guess wad, norah jones acted quite well man, heh.. after the movie we were like... hmm, where to now? then we were in the middle of orchard but i just decided to ask cherylene.. "do u wanna cycle?".. was a bit apprehensive cuz i thot it as like damn random but cherylene shouted "YES LA!!! i was thinking of that too!! lets go east coast!!!" hahaha... damn freaky... cycled and had gong gong plus fried oyster... before we headed to chill at the HK cafe at east coast... super gd durian pudding...

dancing with air's in the finals... n the qn i had to answer in their written interview was: Question 1. 请用100个字形容自己的创作歌曲。

and my answer was:

这首歌写的是一个人如何在深爱的人离开后，用想象来麻痹五官，让自己仿佛在拥抱着对方，以解强烈的思念。这首歌其实是写给我女朋友的。当我们决定在一起的时候，她其实多一个月就得去加拿大读书，又问我是否要她取消去加拿大，甚至是否真的要在一起。但我想，爱一个人就是要她开心，所以把这个故事，用跳舞来诠释，简单的来说，我爱她的方式就是，她的舞步，我心有灵犀，她要怎么跳，我都会配合着她。和空气跳舞了很久，感觉难受，但我想，珍惜一个人嘛，不曾失去，如何懂得。

for those hu din noe the story behind this song, haha... n yup.. i can never emphasize enuf tat... its great to have u back =)

2008-01-08T19:38:00.000+08:00

AIXIN jelly made by cher!!! =)
bailey's martini and some cocktail drank hahaha
desert wine from vancouver.. yum!
chiobu!!!! =P (cher rolls eyes)

dinner at fish n co!
me n my dunan high brothers!!!

ytd started off totally screwed up.. cancelled half a day of celebrations to come back hall for meetg then WTF, meetg cancelled... but, well, miscomm pls shit happens... so, endured and refused to let it spoil the rest of the day... thanx Wynne and ben tan for letting me ventilate!!! hahaha...

after tat finally met with cher!! we had a nice dinner at fish n co... the seafood platter never fails to thrill me... n cher s damn powerful so... no problems finishg the food.. after tat we went new asia ba above equinox to chill... the view of singapore's night scene from 70 storeys high was damn nice... n guess wad... two cocktails n the bill came to... just 22 bucks!!! cheaper than zouk lo... plus damn romantic!! hmm... next time bring HH n X there to nua... hahahah then we took a walk at espanade there before going back hostel to watch movie on my lappie... then nua away the afternn and evening wif cher, hahaha... PEIQIN!!! DELAY MY PAKTORing!!! wahahhahaa... kidding la... u jiayou in ya TS! im sure u will find ya niche =)

aniwae, went out recently for steambt with dunman high frens... shiok... BUT!!! they had no luncheon meat!!! WTF!!! im never gonna eat there again man... grrrr... but it as damn fun seeing hh swallow his food like a beast while simultaneously saying that he is not feeling well...

HH is back!!! cher is back!!! 3 words: SI BAE SUNG!!! hahaa

2008-01-06T14:01:00.000+08:00

hahahh... had super fun bbal ytd... wif HH kaobaeing arnd, having hot shooting form, helping me to screen n making some passes we dun see from his in the past, life is a breeza cuz we dun haveta get bullied by other pple like in the past... "Next team can?" cannot, cuz last time we onli have like 3 pple... some thgs dun change though, HH is still fucking late wahahahaha

in the evening met my mum with cherylene at hotel mirammar for jap food buffet... the food is... WTH!!! hahaha, so damn good! n i think my mum is so freaking CCUUUTTTEEEE!!!! hahhaha... hmmm... took pictures with cher n... well, i must say, its so gd to be taking pictures with u again =)

2008-01-02T13:06:00.000+08:00

sibae sian 2dae... sibae sian... (xiong: cherylene come back still kaobae??!!!)...

had driving lesson in the morning again... did poorly again... the instructor kept scolding me.. n told me if this goes on i cant even pass man... then exams oso flop... play pool and bball everyone keep laughing at me... they joking onli la.. but, hahaha... ya man, recently self efficacy taking the wrong direction man...

but cher is back so... POWER OF LOVE!!! pls turn my luck arnd! haha

2007-12-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

some videos that i have taken recently... jy and jingxin advertising for ajisen... n my mum and engjoe getting the star award.. hahaha =p

2007-12-27T16:46:00.000+08:00

me:" i think this sem my XYZ module jialat le lah..."
someone else:" u dun bluff la, u sure A lo, even i got A- lo"
** i check result **
me:"see, C+ for health psyche, B for developmental psyche"
someone else:" woah... erm... ok la, aniwae ya CAP overall still above 4 wad"
me:"...... **silence**"

this is wad i just went thru... n no one understands im not upset because my cap went down for wad... but when u have gotten 'A's for all sort of mods except for ya major mods for 3 sems... one wil start to wonder whether he or she is doing the right major afterall...

I got a C+.. but i dun think many will offer any words of comfort, i guess =(

2007-12-22T22:23:00.000+08:00

i worte this song when i was in the army... hope this song can strike a chord with all the army guys or anyone hu has been thru it while in love... =) fourth song at the right below the tagboard

《七分之二的男友》

Verse1
望出床边的天窗，森林大海叫我绝望
要再等多五天，才能看见你的脸庞
想到这里，我的心好伤。。。

而听你的声音在电话旁，努力用笑声来隐藏着悲伤
等了五天我终于能够回到你的身旁
却害怕自己，不能像从前那样。。。

Chorus
七分之二的男友到底是足够不足够
两天的幸福，代价却是五天的等候
七分之二的男友到底是足够不足够
不断的思念，是否把爱甜蜜变丑陋
而当好的男人在你身边擦身而过
好想松开你的手，让你更好过。。。

Verse2
而有一天你说你爱上了另一个他，我只能用沉默当作回答
身旁的人都说我怎能不责怪你不生气
他们不明白，你有多孤寂。。。

当你的号码出现在电话银幕上，以为这次分手已是必然
但你留着告诉我说你有多么爱我
说这两年，你要陪我熬过。。。

Repeat Chorus

Bridge
像哄你想疼你，制造浪漫，让你开心
却觉得好疲惫，仿佛微笑，也没有力气
想让你走。。。却舍不得你。。。

Repeat Chorus

2007-12-20T00:18:00.000+08:00

beautiful lights...
music box???
gals seem to like to do this... so i tried too haha

空即是色，色即是空。。。曾当成是笑话的一句话，今晚仿佛多了一份体会。。。刚才走在街上，不禁百感交集，想到了从前，想到了现在，想到了未来。。。

圣诞灯火的绚丽，让今晚黯淡了许多，人潮的汹涌，只让我而外寂寞，情侣的每一个举动越是甜蜜，嘴角越是感觉到苦涩，很庆幸有好友相伴，却感叹它只是朋友，而不是她。。。更想到承诺虽代表永恒与诚恳，承诺的诚恳却往往只在它被许下的那一瞬间。。。

但也许世事都有着她存在的原因，不是吗？也许这个圣诞的黯淡，是为了让下一个圣诞更绚丽，今晚的寂寞与苦涩，是为了让将来的每一个夜晚更幸福与甜蜜。。。朋友相伴的感慨却又带点失落，能凸显下一个圣诞与情人拥抱使得感动万千。。。承诺仿佛只是诚恳的永恒，但我坚信，也渴望。。。下一个承诺。。。会是永恒的诚恳。。。

圣诞快乐，下一个圣诞，我一定会比这个圣诞。。。快乐 =）

2007-12-18T00:39:00.000+08:00

wow... david told me he uploaded our 2 songs onto www.beanidol.com ... woah... then i went to see its like a place where everyone uploads their priginal compositions... quite cool man... n there were lots of comments!!! hahaha... quite encouraged by all the comments... aniwaes, will upload 2 or 3 more songs onto my blog n this website in this coming 2 weeks... yup!!! hahaha

2007-12-14T22:27:00.000+08:00

me n my army buddies at sentosa!!!

found his pic in my HP... yup, fun at sentosa... volleyball, ultimate frisbee... and watch chiobu!!! woah... some bikini babes realli quite hot... oopppsss... sorry dear... biological instincts... i promise when gothot guys on the street ill jio u to see k??? hahhaha

2dae ply bball with xiong... walao... lose 7 sets to 1... xiong shoot 3pointer oso like drinking water... shoot off the glass form left side every shot oso thiok... n when he shot from the right, i shouted "hahaa... this side u are not accurate when u slice the board!!!" xiong replied:" then dun use the board lo... then the ball went in.. OMG...

after that we ate lunch at hougang... then i bought my swimming trunks... tehn xiong persuade e to go back to school wif him... he said that it wun rain n i ca swim while aiting for him n i can oso get my stuff from the hall... i believed him... but it rained... but i cleaned up my whole room!!! shiok ah!!!

then i went dinner wif xiong... after that we play pool... walao... xiong use his cue stick to measure angle... then he made shots like he was playing yahoo pool... i lost 5-2...

sigh, hahaha... but i enjoyed the day very much... brothers forever

2007-12-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

the house fels like theres onli me now... n my familay are all asleep now... leaving just me in the living room... they all say... ya must be damn happy everyday rite??? shes coming back soon... yet i think... this is realli the toughest period i am like going thru.. perhaps tats why they ay the last lap is the hardest... suddenlt remembered 2 verses from the song that i wrote in the past...

黑黑的天空，是什么都没有，

只有月亮高挂在天空

空荡的房子，是谁都没有，

只有孤单寂寞的我

望出窗外，看见美丽的星空，

却觉得仍然缺少些什么

原来美女，再多也没有用，

因为我对你，情有独钟。。。

justfeel like writing it down =)

2007-12-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

the christmas lights at orchard..

yilynn n me at ice cold beer...

huihuang is leaving... suddenly it just doesnt feel right... am i like... getting perturbed im gonna miss huihuang... i think so.. i really do... beetin go taiwan le.. jiangyuan going somewhere oso.. left me n xiong... seriously i got no idea how my christmas is gonna be man... hmm.. huihuang said im gonna post his video dancing para para n make him a clown... but huihuang is one hu becomes the clown to make the ple arnd him happy... so never underestimate his maturity and sensitive side...

wil always remember ya offer to see cherylene off tat day... im not gay but... yup wil miss u =)

2007-12-10T10:31:00.000+08:00

stupid blogger down... cant post pictures... but aniwaes... had great fun shopping wif yilynn on saturday... we spent like the whole day walking arnd n watched a nice movie called enchanted... its abt this gal from a fairy tale getting lost in the real world... so she was trying to look for her true love's kiss... i aint exactly looking for one... im waiting for it!!! oopppss... paiseh... erm, yup... then we had dinner at a korean restaurant before chilling at ice cold bar... somehow, wasnt bored for a single moment.. though got abit emo when i saw the christmas lights... yilynn quite chio oso but... well... im sure she understood why i was emo hahaha...

in any case... so shopping wif a gal can be fun afterall... this is my past impression of wad shopping is like:

gal: hey wait here k? i want ya opinion on this top...
me: ok
gal: how does this look? which is better?
me: i think the one ya holding on ya right hand better...
gal: HUH? haiya, ask u u oso dunno wan la...

WTH, CCB... these are the words that will go thru in my mind... n when i shoped wif yilynn, she asked for my opinion everytime she tried on something... found most stuff that i pointed to her nice and tried them on... bought shoes and skirt that i suggested she tried them on... i think perhaps it just happened that we have similar taste.. the again onli ne has comented that my taste is not good..

but in any case... if ya want a guy to shop wif u... n ya tastes differ alot... its ok... just make sure u show that ya respect his opinion but tell him nicely that ya taste is diferent... anyway, "u oso dunno lah" shld realli be the last thg that comes out from ya mouth.. take note gals =)

2007-12-07T03:05:00.000+08:00

woah.. finally im free!!! n exams ae over... do feel a little down la... cuz cher wun be arnd to have fun with me.. sigh... in any case, i met up with huihuang and xiong for ktv!!! woah, reina's singing is damn powerful man!!! wahahaha... after that... i played pool with huihuang... ecerytime he say my white ball wil go into the hole, it will go in.. his mouth is damn powerful man!!!! hahahha then i ate supper with him... he said eat teochew porridge... guess wad... he ordered like curry potatos, otah and laa laa to go with the porridge...

in any case, its finally over!!! =)

2007-12-05T01:06:00.000+08:00

was reading my textbook for health psychology... chanced upon this picture... my frens, if u were to use one picture to represent ya ideals and wad u strive for in a relationship... wad wld the picture be? perhaps im naive... as proven more than once before... but i shall still believe... i love this picture =)

n dear... come back soon...

2007-11-30T02:05:00.000+08:00

2dae i was on the phone with cherylene... n the call went on for almost an hour... before that we were tryg to study 2gether on skype... somehow when we toked on the phone, i felt kindof relieved when she suggested hanging up cuz she can tell that im bored... she was kindof upset that the notion of hanging up seemed so appealing to me... However, i do miss her alot... just tat somehow, my capacity to talk for very long has waned... in fact i always feel very rejuvenated by the shorter calls of around 15 to 30 mins... perhaps doing nothg but toking for months, or exam material to cover, has kindof caused this decrease in capacity... but she was very understandg too. telling me tat she knows tat exam stress and stuff is causing me to be like tat... in fact, there has so many other occassions whereby i receive an email of thanks for being there for her, sharing her emotional baggages, tolerating her emo times or even how wonderful a bf i am to her... ive never ever feel so appreciated in my life... yup, in the past, never...

wrote a song for my frens... do u guys like it? hahaha... or maybe, have ya seen the lyrics already? in any case, weiliang was telling me tat my songs always have these "weiliat" kind of falsetto switches... its becuz my voice always not high enuf to sing my own songs... haha.. while i do not find that a problem, im greatly inspired by wad he say? if i dun have a high voice, or i even lose my falsetto, does that mean i cannot sing well?

the next song i will write will be about how a guy who gets sick of all the high reaching voices in pop songs... he hence writes a song for himself to prove: no falsetto and a moderately high voice... can still sing a good song!!! =)

2007-11-26T10:15:00.000+08:00

i write this song, to tell myself that one day, perhaps ill be sucessful, rich and with a lovely family... yet i should never forget, or take for granted all the frens hu have walked this long journey with me... becuz one day, when riches turn to rags, when the one i love most might have left me... xiong, hh and all my frens... i hope u guys will be there for me, cuz without u guys, the world would have never been able to look so beautiful... thanks, really... **hhHuuGzz** (HH + X: dun gay can??!!) haha

《白色的美》

VERSE 1
白色，衬托，着色彩，

只要你的世界美丽便感慨，

没有期待，默默关怀。。。

白色，简单，而美丽，

大方得往往，让人忘记它存在，

它为你存在。。。

CHORUS

直到世界渐渐，失去，色彩，

我才发现白色有多美，

是我忽略了你，让时间，让冷淡，

将白色变灰。。。

白色慢慢变灰，变黑，眼泪，

再多也无法冲淡，这世界的黑，

给我一次机会，我不会，再忘记，

白色的美。。。

VERSE 2

繁华，的都市，炫丽，

得让人看不见谁是好谁是坏，

你却一直，默默关怀。。。

如今，你，已离开，

除了自己，我还能够怪谁，

脑海剩下，一片空白。。。

REPEAT CHORUS

2007-11-22T10:22:00.000+08:00

jiangyuan's new gf, compaitable rite?
huihuang's new found weight squashg me
jiangyuan's new fling???!!!

brotherly love in its greatest essence, hahaha

2007-11-21T11:10:00.000+08:00

望着雨，想起了你。。。
想起雨如何洒在两颗炽热的心，
却制造着沸腾的情绪，
敲开了我们原本沉默的心。。。

听着你的声音，望着外面的大雨，
心中掀起耐人寻味的感觉，
两地相思，两颗炽热的心，
把沸腾的情绪化成了焚身的思念。。。

被思念灼伤的心，渴望着你的笑，
像小雨般舒缓我的心情，
但我们像是在沙漠上的两片天空,
有点感慨听到彼此的声音，
同样渴望着小雨的舒缓，
心却已热得无法为彼此做些什么。。。

想说出安慰的话，
却像是说多错多。。。
想不如安静地聆听你的心声，
你却问我为何沉默不语。。。
其实知道你要的只是一个拥抱，
但除了等待，我能做什么呢？

我要努力地为你而开心，为你而笑，
因为虽不可给予拥抱，
却希望我的笑声，能够在你的心中，
再次唤起小雨，愿我的笑，
能再次洒在你那炽热的心，
能再次制造着沸腾的心情，
能给你等待我的力量。。。

5more weeks, n we shall dance again once more =)

2007-11-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

my cousin got married ytd.. super touching scene... my cousins and i YAM SENG til it was like forever and everyone was looking at us n wanting us to stop ahhahaa... damn fun....

aniwae was pondering about this... my cousin, before xchangg ring with her husband, said that she will be "ya submissive wife"... is there some other nterpretatin in that word for christians? but for me, ill never ant a submissive wife... cuz guys are so damn stupid and careless sometimes... they really need to put their ego aside and let their wives put in some precious intervention... works the same for the opposite way... if my wife just submits to me, why not hire a maid? intellectual women are harder to handle in some way, but i wld think its more rewarding than having a maid ahahhaa

beetin flew off... we saw her off... 2dae i played bball 2 times man morning n evening, damn shiong... n the uncles we played with... is tat wad we will become? hahahaa, since HH is already 83KG.. aniwae, heard some funny stuff on fridae...

JX: 我不急着找另一半。。。
JY: 不要紧，因为我是你的全部！！！**rolls eyes** hahaha

HH：送飞机= send aeroplane
HH: for u i can go up knife mountains, down oil wok, two collar bones stab knife!

HH, i love you! less than cherylene of cuz hahaha

2007-11-11T01:37:00.000+08:00

randomly thinking of a concept for gary's tune... how shld i conceptualise it?

a small white dot in a world of colours silently makes the other colors more beautiful and is often ignored...

yet a small white dot in a sea of black is the brightest, or even most beautiful thg one sees in that picture...

perhaps some friends, or even loved ones exists around us, silently making us feel better while we take all its effort for granted when things are looking rosy and nice...

n only realise them when we are unhappy and alone, when the whole world seems lonely, dark and dull...

randomness at work again haha

2007-11-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

my grandma cutting cake... dun u think shes kawaii!!!
this is kahn, aka PIG... eating steamboat wif me at the deck haha
tryg to take a pic 2gether but not look like gays

bdae cake!
my family!!! super big hahaha.. stil got pple never come lo
another picture! like zhen qing man
why my auntie look so sad? hahaha, HUNGRY!??
she looks so beautiful when shes so happy!!! hahaha **muuUaaCkkZZ**

randomly felt like changing my blog's outlook... n just changed lo... cher say its girly... but in HH's terms, SO WAD! I LIKE! hahaha... i rule my world =p

my grandma is 72! walao... n my cousin is gettg married soon n she will see the child of her grandchild! walao... power la... hahaha... think we really can shoot zhenqing liao, including my mum, 7 daughters and 1 son! hahaha go n multiply on average each of her children has 2 children on average n... WOAH!!! hahaha, Singapore government must love my grandma hahahah =p

aniwae recent times she hasnt been smiling so much like 2dae... was studyg health psyche just now... when we are old, self efficacy n pride drops because of immobility, decreasing physical attractiveness and decreasing attention from the children hu r growing up... she even kindof feels that my uncle's wife is like taking over her cuz my auntie does most of the sework n cooking... but she looks damn gorgeous when shes in that last photo when she smiles so brightly... hope she can feel our love... =) without her our family wld have crumbled cuz my grandpa died early because of alcohol n heart attack...

i feel that when we are old, there are so much thgs we cant do... therefore... we shld dress and do thgs that young pple will do! just swam 20 laps... when im old, im not even sure if i can walk properly... i shall stay happy now! because in life there are bigger hurdles to overcome! but after the hurdle theres always somethg gd to look forward to...

rite, cher? =)

2007-11-03T17:05:00.001+08:00

updated and changed some of the lyrics!!!! =)

<<不想唱了>>

VERSE 1
轻轻，地唱出淡淡忧伤
才能突显，激动时的悲伤
偶尔可以带有一点哭腔
太多却又怕你说我不浪漫

VERSE2
沙哑，隐约透露着悲伤
咬字不清，又像是优柔寡断
掌声再响亮，那又怎样
你不在，你不在，你不在。。。我身旁。。。

CHORUS 1
大提琴的哭声，
手风琴的无忧无虑，
空荡的心，（已）掀不起，任何情绪
荧幕上的自己，
虚伪的笑像在笑着自己，
忘记你，忘记你，忘记你，谈何容易。。。

VERSE 3
冷淡的心，歌声试着溶化别人的心
休止符不知不觉地，延续着遗留的心情
情歌再浪漫，唱起来都千篇一律
心中呐喊着什么，还不如沉默不语

REPEAT CHORUS 1

CHORUS 2
大提琴的哭声，
手风琴的无忧无虑，
再美的旋律，对我来说，也没意义
看照片上的你，甜美的笑，我用来安慰自己
忘记你，忘记你，忘记你，谈何容易。。。

我知道你就快要回到我身旁。。。

2007-11-02T16:57:00.000+08:00

just finished writing a song... and i must thank these few pple and events that have inspired me to write these lyrics...
1. virtuso for saying that i do not vary my singing enuf to create feelings
2. Xinyao concert where i performed a duet with a very pretty gal but felt very lost when i could not see cherylene in the audience
3. having this dream that i became famous
4. Gary for telling me how sick he is of love songs, causing me to wonder why...

just the lyrics here... will post the song after its arranged, which is like forever cuz my senior got FYP... meanwhile... hope u guys like it... =)

<<不想唱了>>

VERSE 1
轻轻，地唱出淡淡忧伤
才能突显，激动时的悲伤
偶尔可以带有一点哭腔
太多却又怕你说我不浪漫

VERSE2
沙哑，隐约透露着悲伤
咬字不清，又像是优柔寡断
掌声再响亮，那又怎样
你不在，你不在，你不在。。。我身旁。。。

CHORUS
大提琴的哭声，
手风琴的无忧无虑，
空荡的心，（已）掀不起，任何情绪
荧幕上的自己，
虚伪的笑像在笑着自己，
忘记你，忘记你，忘记你，谈何容易。。。

VERSE 3
冷淡的心，歌声试着溶化别人的心
休止符不知不觉地，延续着遗留的心情
情歌再浪漫，唱起来都千篇一律
心中呐喊着什么，还不如沉默不语

REPEAT CHORUS
你不在，你不在，你不在。。。快回来

2007-10-30T15:20:00.000+08:00

vintage looking phone!!!

butter garlic escargo!!!!!! did i speell it correctly? hahaha
chicken chop in meriene sauce gratin style...
sirloin steak!!!
authentic leather menu!
romantic settings!!!! =)

my mum testg out her skills...
couple shot!!!!!
our table no. ... class hahaha
somethgs tat look nice on the table!!!! =)

went to a damn romantic restaurant... found it when i met up with my mum for lunch... i remember exclaiming "Mummy! this restaurant damn romantic rite??!!!" and she replied... "but ya r with a laozhabor!!!" hahaha... true to a certain extent... but if shes a laozhabor, she has to be one of the prettiest mums or laozhabors arnd!!! =p then the food was freaking nice... and a pint of asahi really completed the meal...

met up with victoria ytd at vivo... watched a movie called halloween tat just keeps showing how a psychopath keep going arnd killing pple... waste money... but victoria say she finds the show exciting... eeewwww... hahaha... luck not my gf, dunno wad she will do to me!!! =p then we had nothg to do after dinner n i randomly suggested the arcade... n she challenged me to dance para para... n so i did!!!! hahaha... got a C grade but pass the level la... thot very chui... so i ask her to dance also... then she can onli get D!!!! hahahaha

heres the video of how cock i look during para para... laugh ya hearts out! hahaha

2007-10-28T11:46:00.001+08:00

emo emo emo... these few days im so emo!!! hahaha... missing cherylene badly... cant seemta find energy to do stuff... 9 more weeks to go!!! pain... but i noe ill pick myself up somehow...

went night cycling on friday nite... think all the emoness must have stemmed from the cycling... cuz wherever i cycle past, images, be it from the past, or how i imagine being there with cher will be... especially when we were cycling to newton market to eat... pass by MCYS...

however... the gd thgs is tat the memories are so fond... there are places tat used to fill me with nostalgia but have somewad no effect on me animore... took a train to learn driving 2dae n pass by a place which i used to go so often... yet now my mind is just a blank when i pass by... perhaps my mind auto-censors lousy stuff? then i have a good brain... no wonder i rarely have any past memories when walking past pool places which i have been to with huihuang before... =p

huihuang say i ground weiliat... sigh... startg to think i suck in bball... but its ok... xiong is so powerful... n if huihuang continues to screen and shoot like he did on friday... plus JY continue to display wad i saw the last time... i think i can just check the ball, make one pass, then stand there n see my team win...

cant seem to do anythg rite... perhaps i shld just mug, haha

2007-10-24T19:14:00.001+08:00

2007-10-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

my most beloved Girl friend!!!!

The "why is my porridge not here yet" look

this is my mum, just had supper with her... this is the one woman who ive dated since i knew wad dating was... i used to shop alot wif her... n i will tag along from the woman's clothes department to even the bran and panties section... The supermarket, where i will throw everythg i want into the trolley... n mentally prepare for a feast when i get home... then the toys department... where i will tell her how nice a certain ninja turtle action figure without mentioning the word "buy"... i will then wait for her analysis and decision...

Nowadays... i realise theres less stuff to do with her... and what used to be an undying stamina for shopping has mellowed into what i would now compare to as a walk in the park...i vaguely remember days whereby i called her everyday to ask when she was coming home... and getting real upset when i knew that she wanted to take up a partime job after her 8-5 job, pleading to her not to becuz we wun have time for each other... Nowadays, im just home on the weekends and she calls me almost once or twice a day at least... what she used to hold on to was a small little palm... which now dangles at an uncomfortable distance below her palm, so much so that she holds my upper arm as though we were truly dating...

while this shld never be a reason to take someone for granted, the thought of having someone that will never leave you... someone who showers unconditional love... never fails to soothe any unsettled feelings one might have... i used to think, i had already found 2 such persons, only to realise that such thots are but illusions... someone unselfish, truly having my best interests in mind, using every ounce of effort to make sure my life is in order, always reassuring me that everythg she does is for me...

Then again, i refuse to bow down... its just not me... reading an online book called 1984... something caught my eye, bringing out some deep and stirring thots from within... "'Who controls the past, controls the future; who controls the present controls the past... I refuse to let my past control me, cuz it undermines my appreciation and ability to believe in the present... I try my best to control the future, such that a better future will make the past serve nothing but a baseline underlining how bright the future is... I still believe i have found 2 such persons...

beliefs... believe... hmm... why this sudden burst of emotions i do not know... must be a sudden burst of randomnness at work again =)

2007-10-13T16:31:00.000+08:00

ice cold water when posing for block photo!!!!
tryg hard to reach the high pitch bridge...
david and his powerful software...
mixer!!!!
dfavid on the drums....

preparing a surprise for the freshies on blk supper nite...
bananas... and coins in water... blindfolded freshies... I WANT 45cents!!!!
D4 bapoks!!!! hahahha
derrick liao... CHUI hahhaha

blk supper.... where guys wear spaghetti straps n strut their stuff, doing catwalks, hahaha... where pple get smeared by flour, ketchup and what have you... hahaha... sometimes they say hall life is crazy... i certainly think so... hahahha... i guess when we try so hard to make every decision sanely in life, we do need some moments of insanity to release some stress... and formulate some unforgettable experiences... moments whereby we are the real us... moments whereby we are purely guided for instinct and desire for fun... hahaha... more photos on facebook...

above in the picture is me and david... recording dancing with air... seriously david is one hell of an arranger of music... n i alwaz call him the music guru!!! or music GULU... (hahhaa, yes clara, gulu... hmm clara as in amos's gf la hahaha) we were gonna send this song in for competition... the s-pop thingy organised by channel U... david worked many nights on it without sleeping... n he submitted it only 10 mins bfore the deadline... sigh... n the website stopped allowing pple to upload le... feeling fucking sad now... but then again... im still very thankful to have david as a fren la... cuz working with him has made all my songs into real songs... songs that are no longer just a soul but with a body... haaha... in some sense...

damn sian damn sian... FUCKING SIAN!!!!!!!! dreamt of singg on national TV for u dear... =( hmm... maybe nxt time ba

2007-10-07T19:28:00.000+08:00

me n ivy... best frens for 8 yrs cum 2 time duet champions partner... finally took a picture 2gether hahaha
a monster called bear

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a monster called... erm... i think more horrifyg than monster
my mum's shepherd pie!!!

2dea met up with Ivy and we did nothg but nua... and tok kok of cuz... since issac is like perpetually overseas and cher is like in vancouver, we have pretty much to tok abt... had ice cold beer at SMU... hoegarden draft rox!!!!! (X n HH: weiliat!!! JIU GUI!!! WL: kaobae la)

gonna join a competition called s pop or dunno wad... gonna send my song in... "和空气跳舞"... hopefully it will go far???n beetin is flying in a mth's time... dancing with air... being attached to a person that is not by ya side... in times of loneliness we will always have each other!!! cheers!!!

n wang... why is he on my blog??? i think hes a damn garang fren hu tries very hard to maintain our army relationships and friendships... he always organise outings n stuff... sometimes i feel when i do not maintain my friendships, will my frens take initiative? or will everythg just fizzle into thin air... perhaps i shld try n see... dun u think so? but perhaps then ill havta L I V E with the pain of losing them... hmmm....

2007-10-06T21:18:00.000+08:00

randomly feel lie blogging... wanna upload pics but my fujitsu lappie at home got no bluetooth...

aniwae... was at developemental psyche lecture on fridae... false belief... and egocentrism... milestones that children would reacj mentally... basically, in very lament terms, it just means being able to see thgs from one's perspectives... when we are young... this is really more literal in the sense tat when a child sees somethg for example, that is blocked out of sight from the experimenter's angle, he or she thinks that the experimenter will be able to see it too simply because he or she can see it...

hmm... i would think that when we are adults, perhaps this egocentrism, taking the form of more psychological issues marks an adult being matured... and is some sort of milestone... then again this is a milestone some pple might take forever to reach i feel...

remembered i was toking to a fren abt this issue some time before.. imagine this situation... 2 pple, A and B needa buy a a shared phone for some reason... A wants nokia and B wants sony erricsson... they both had a debate and went home subsequently... B thinks in this direction: perhaps Nokia is really better than sony? A must insist on Nokia because A is so used to using Nokia phones... perhaps Nokia is more durable or has better functions? perhaps afterall, Nokia might not be a bad choice afterall? A then thinks in this direction: Why must B want to buy Sony? Isnt it plain obvious that Nokia is better? If i get a Sony phone, i will haveta get used to using it all over again... isnt buying a Nokia phone ridiculous? If Nokia was bought, B will think: Hmm... gues Nokia has its strengths... If Sony was bought, A might just think: Fine, i dun agree at all but if it pleases u, we will buy sony then

thinking in other pple's shoes... seeing thgs from others' perspectives... somethg that takes forever to master, somethg that will hold relationships 2gether... somethg absolutely precious =)

2007-10-02T16:57:00.000+08:00

almost woke up late for bahasa indon test 2dae... somehow i was saved when i woke up at 750am for my 8am test... almost set alarm wrongly and wouldnt have woken up for my test... luckily i felt emo n cldnt fall asleep... so i looked at my hp n realised... saved...

hmm.... 2dae test then lecture then skype with cher then tutorial then swim 20 laps... (slack cuz xiong never supervise hahaha) tats all lo... 2dae got AGM and meeting with the lao ah peks in my hall hahaha... the SCRC (senior common room commitee)... after meetg shld be skyping again and then will attempt to finish my developemental psyche assgnment reading...

sometimes i feel my life is becoming so dry and mundane... realli wanna do some random thgs, have some fun... n i wanna sing ktv badly, huihuang or chiobu, either one... hahaha... sigh, be strong weiliat, be strong

2007-09-26T21:17:00.000+08:00

jasmine toh's bdae treat for me!!!
meeting linjie at science fac...
kee yilynn!!! evan almighty... okok movie onli haha

me n victoria at fisherman's wharf...
vict n me at novena sometime ago...
kayaking wif my my best frens!!!! nothg beats u guys!!! xcept cher of cuz!!! hahahha
clara and me makan supper at geylang
weiliang's gf!!! hahahaha dunno why i post tis pic oso... hahaha

very long never update le... so these are some of the frens hu have kept me company while cher as away... n thanx to all of u for spending time with me... cuz i realli miss her til it feels like insanity is drawing near occasionally... hahahha... n stats is driving me crazy too...

2dae cher ask me:" dear ah... when i go Los Angeles, can i share room with another 2 guys frens?" hmmm... i wished that i can be there with u dear... then like u said ya can share rm with me and not other guys... hahaha... but then again... i think a relationship is all abt trust ba... even though ive been kindof betrayed bfore... i will still stick wif my principles ba... im in singapore n shes in LA... if everyday we are suspecting whether the other party is gonna like another person, how can it ever work?

realise i have many close gal frens... n they all say they feel very comfy arnd me... n i start to wonder why... haha... n i guess i realli have some idea... cuz 15mins into the conversation wif huever i go out wif they will ask, how r u recently? well, tats the verbal cue that will start all my non stop whining abt how badly i miss cherylene... hahaha... guess they are well aware im not the least interested in a fling... hahaha... cuz if tats the case i cld hav just hidden the fact im attached very easily from the rest of the world actalli, hahaha... n have a fling... but seriously... xiong, u n me are the same type la... so beetin, dun think too much too... i believe xiong loves one n onli u!!! =)

frens are such dangerous pple... i feel... one moment they can be praising me n saying im a sweet bf... the next moment they can be saying as a guy im not accomodatg enuf n tat cher shld be more demanding... others have said why i dun just dump all the hall stuff i now have n earn money to fly to canada?

for being understanding, matured and strong... 13more weeks of pain for u is all worthwhile =) n my frens, thanks for all the care n love u guys shower, thru msn or even ON MY TAGBOARD???!!! hahaha... realised i must have been qte a reasonably ok fren... cuz when my

my msn nic says "emo"... i had 8 pple asking me wad happened and whether i am ok... thanx pple, i love all of u too... n my mum, grandparents... WAIT!!! U THINK GOLDEN HORSE AWARDS SPEECH AH???!!! ok pple, short n sweet, thanx!!! =) n dear... thanx!!! =)

2007-09-15T19:17:00.000+08:00

2dae went for virtuso auditions at SMU... quite funny... the guy just told me to sing... n after i sang he just said "thanx"... hahahhaa... then called a gd frn on the bus... n got shouted at... felt quite hurt la... though i noe tat she is must hav been in a bad mood... but then again, i just hate it when pple shout at me, cuz it brings back very bad memories...

when i was at SMU, some lyrics just came flooding my brain and i finally filled in the bridge for the song i wrote for cher... hope u understand why i wrote this bridge this way... n hope tat wherever u go... whenever u miss me... u can sing this song... perhaps time will really fly and go past faster... n very soon i can see u again =)

<<和空气跳舞>>

(VERSE 1)
指尖残留着你的温度
你不在，我尝试装着毫不在乎
空气缠绕着你的发香
闭上眼睛靠记忆呼吸

(VERSE 2)
写一首属于你我的歌曲
唱着唱着，也许能填补现时和幻想的差异
伸手却不能抱得太紧
才不会发现是空气

(CHORUS)
我只爱你，我的舞伴只会是你
你的舞步我和你心有灵悉
你要怎么跳，我都会配合着你
就算剰下回忆中的你也不哭泣
我只爱你，我的舞伴永远是你
我会等你，请你别把我忘记
如果让你走能够给你幸福
微笑地松开你的手也是种最完美的舞步

(REPEAT VERSE 1)

写一首属于你我的歌曲
唱着唱着，也许能填补现时和幻想的差异
伸手却不能抱得太紧才不会发现自己

(BRIDGE)
翩翩起舞努力地转动着身体
时针却没加速转动
带着眼泪独自跳双人舞
愿时间被我感动

(REPEAT CHORUS)

hope time will fly, so tat i will dance with air no more... =)

2007-09-09T12:44:00.001+08:00

qte long never blog liao... very lazy plus very busy... science of music and bahasa is realli time consuming... n the other handim tryg ta catch up on readings... plus my driving realli sux so im gonna shuffle between schl n eunos during a weekday so tat i can improve... as for the mana thingy... think ill just end... hahaha basically xtacy humsulou will release the gas and I will thru some national broadcast use myhypnotising abilities to calm n neutralise the effects of th gas... then horny hunter will slug it out n kill xtacy humsuplou... in a nutshell la... hahhaha...

aniwae... waiting at bedok mac now n tryg to catch cher online but shes not there... tried calling on jajah but she din pick up... sigh... its realli like kylie's song... "cant get u outta my head.... cant get u outta my head"... hahaha...

miss ya dear... alot... n hpefully, for my frens out there... if the one u love... is still beside u, cherish his or her presence bfore he or she leaves... if he or she is not there and have left but will return, do not blame him or her for leaving but ask yaself wad u had done to make him or her leave... in my case... ill wait patiently for cher to return... becuz to waiting for someone u love... n someone whom u noe loves no one but u... and waiting for a gal hu is matured, understanding, good tempered and sweet is worth the long wait =)

i tell myself "weiliat... u hav gone thru worse times, this is nothing!!!!" SHIT... im missing cher again hahaha

2007-09-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

just now me, huihuang and gang went to makan steambat 2gether!!!! shiok man.. eat til feel like feel like dying... but then i had ta go home early cuz i have a date on skype!!! hahaha.. but tanx guys thanx alot!!!! then the orange ball pants ya guys bought me is so HH!!! hahaha... no design one phoneix sun logo n adiddas logo 70+ bucks!!! hahahha... like his gap shirt... but its orange!!! love it man so AA hahahaha... (orange pants better than blue underwear rite?? wahahahaha).. aniwae me xiong n hh remembered somethg on the bus...

weilat is sick of sweet drinks and approaches kopi stall that we have ordered alot of drinks fro already... uncle charges him 30cents...

weiliat:"walao, he shldnt even charge me la!!! at most charge 20cents for plain water rite??? we bought so much drinks liao!!"

HH:" actualli its a damn god deal... u tan tiok (had a good bargain) liao lo..."

weiliat:" WHY????!!"

HH: Teh=70cents
Teh Peng=90cents
Peng= Teh Peng - Teh
= (90-70)cents
= 20cents
therefore, water= water peng - peng
= (30-20)cents
= 10cents

therefore, weiliat has a good bargain becuz he said shld charge 20cents for the water but he was charged 10 cents onli.

**weiliat, xiong n JY roll eyes**

2007-08-30T14:24:00.000+08:00

the calendar in my scrapbbok that says the dates whereby i can open my letters
micely wraped pressie!!!
combined shot...
candles... flames of my qualities and 3 wishes
me n dear!!!!

grafitti at bedok reservoir after throwg bazhang
my bdae candles surroundg my pressie!!!!
close up!!!
me and dear again!!! heh
one of the flames....

super nice bdae present... in fact the best n sweetest one that i have ever received... sometimes i think its realli not how much the present cost, but rather the effort put into making the present... combined with the fact i love randomness and innovative stuff... this pressie is so me and hhahahaa... i was extremely touched...

22 candles each labelled with a quality cher believes i possess... flame of diligence, flame of aspiration, fervor, music muse, therapeutic power... n more.. then 3 flames of wishes that im supposed to have for my bdae wishes... lying in the center amongst the dried flowers is a scapbook painstakingly made... with many letters written, to be read at different dates according to the calendar... then theres the photo frame with our pictures... and a flowing story that is written and flowing through the notes attached below each photo... the bez pressie i ever got... one that reali reali melted me... =)

2dae dear flew off... dun realli felt extremely sad now la... but ytd when i called her and looked at our photos, i cried uncontrollably... n cldnt stop.. pr maybe its "wailing" according to peiqin, Clara and kady... hahaha... this 3 are like the super gd frens of cher and seriously, the thgs they do for cher makes me feel its a blessing that i can noe them... but then again, i have my very gd frens oso ba... huihuang... the one that toks loudly, says lame jokes non stop... seemingly brainless n cock... suddenly dropped me an sms offering to go to the airport wif me to send cher off... he said he was afraid ill be sad to go there alone n leave alone.. somemore huihuang like had no schol 2dae and we had to reach the airport like at 6+...

ya r a brother and on this entry of my blog, i sincerely salute u n say thanks =) n cher... hope u wil come back soon... missya

2007-08-27T13:32:00.000+08:00

this is the legendary mushroom man in my story... aka jeejee yummy hahaha
huihuang aka horny hunter tryg to pretend hes shorter than 1.2m
the present that i made for ezrina... =)

Chapter7... A game

I watched eagerly in front of the monitors... When was the last time i saw these two together? Both were once important chess pieces in my game, tasked to assasinate horny hunter... Both were genetically re-engineered to have special abilities... When both have failed, i have decided that i needed to improvise and make them even better fighters... One was always longing for home, handicapped by emotions, making me promise that horny hunter will be his last assignment even after i had killed his wife... was it sheryl? or cherry? a pretty but nonetheles hindrance to my plans... the other craved for bloodshed and was always eager to pick up a fight... the choice was obvious... the latter ill keep.. the former, ill dispose.. He was once arrested for molesting a young girl... he has changed his ways and even had a daughter and wife... slapping him with a heinous crime of child rape, allowing him to escape, then capturing him for the good of Pasereez seemed like the perfect impetus for my rise in popularity... plus killing him would be no fun... knowing horny hunter will seek his help against me, I had gone to great pains to set up this match, to see if my polished product will fare better than his previous colleague... a part of the game which i knew would be most entertaining...

Meanwhile... the perparations are all done... with my timer run cylinders secured in air conditioning pipes and systems all over the cities... the dull and grey moods of this city would soon be alleviated... the city will be filled with endless laughter... those insolent bastards will stop their incessant whining about taxes, social security and other petty issues... I did not allow free speech just to let those ignorant fools sing the praises of others and belittle my painstaking attempts to keep this city happy... the crime rate was indeed rising... but have i not tried to surpress it??? In that case, it is a duty incumbent upon me to deal a little punsihment for being ungrateful... and make a day for the city to laugh at their own foolishness...

These two have never gotten along well... and honestly, if they have worked together I might have gotten rid of horny hunter by now... but its ok... I truly believe jeejee yammy will win against... oh... my press associates called him whacko laoticko... hilarious... 1hr before this gloomy city will see its savior... and a 2 V 1 death match between my masterpiece and two thorns in my ass... I am so in love with myself...

2007-08-26T15:00:00.000+08:00

wakao... stupid xiong keep complaining i never update man... hahaha... but nohtg much to update oso la.. now that schl has alreadi started... stupid sports com is like after my life again for inter block games which is damn sian... then xinyao want me to perform... which i dun mind though, hahahaha... but my sore throat cant seem to heal fully man... n ytd the seafood meal and the sotong gia at jb din help at all... but hu cares??!!! they tasted damn goooddddd!!!!

ytd... me xiong, hh and cherylene went into jb 2gether... haha, gathering of the 3 most impt pple in my life to go jb... shiok... of cuz family oso impt la... haha... but, ya... the bus ride was damn jialat... the stupid bus stuck at the causeway man... then i was like standing on my toes at the doorstep... but thanx to cherylene for being my cushion and sofa to lean on, hahahha... then after tat we sing ktv in jb... super updated man the songs... but the guy scolded us for eatg outside food... grrr... but besides that it was gd... then we went for seafood... walao eh... 130 riinnggiiittt... we ate crayfish, oatmeal prawns, laalaa, stingray, kailan, sambal sotong, frog legs, sotong gia... **bbBBuuUrRppZZ** hahahahha...

wun be seeing dear 2dae cuz shes bz wif stuff... n shes flying on thrsdae morning... sigh... 4mths sounds short but seriously, its like a million yrs to me la... but ill wait for u k??? meanwhile ill survive with xiong and huihuang's lame jokes!!! =) gambate weiliat!!! =)

2007-08-20T11:59:00.000+08:00

chapter 6... underground

"Pasereez hospitals overwhelmed- unhappy but laughing"... Headlines similar to these are driving me nuts... I contemplated setting a bomb off at X.H.'s secret hideout where i was almost taken out... J.R. had however warned me of how the explosion might spread the gas all over Pasereez... Hence the only way was to find out where Xtacy Humsuplou's exact location and kill him... killing the mayor would be by no means an easy task... but i was glad my cause was aided by a betrayed ex-government employed assasin... extremely skilled in ninjutsu and his silver blade, there was another ability that he possessed that will prove to be the key to saving this city...

J.R. had found out via satellite detection that there was a large volume of activity between X.H.'s hideout and some underground facility... even J.R.'s satellites could not pick out the exact location... Me and Liat had tailed a truck which left from X.H. ... Liat and I were now trudging through the sewers with the directions the truck driver had given us, compliments to liat's hypnotising abilities... then again, i was confident my knuckles would have beaten those answers out of the driver too...

Loud clubbing music... strong smell of alcohol... a purplish smog flooding the place... people dancing with severely eratic laughing... taking a closer look, there were many unconscious on the floor, with the easily distinguishable grin spread across their faces, similar to the pictures that were hogging the headlines... J.R. had found me on the road and had given me a strong dosage of tranquilisers before i regained consciousness... He told me if i had sniffed in a larger amount he would not have been able to help... J.R. had extracted my blood sample and was still working on an antidote.. but we had no time to lose...

We hurried though the crowd and found what looked like an entrance... it was guarded by two tall and muscular men who had on them oxygen masks, purplish tanks and rifles... the loud music meant Liat could not provide the esy way out... so i dashed at them and threw two accurate uppercuts that drove them unconscious... the mob was oblivious to wad had happened and simply continued to dance... we needed to find the control room... hopefully then i will be able to download the data that will ultimately provide J.R. with what he needed to expose Xtacy Humsuplou's true colours...

With some luck, a few more punches and slashes... we found a room with a huge computer with many monitors that were fed with images of people dancing... it suddenly occured to me... shldnt Liat and me have been detected by this surveilance when we had knocked out the two guards at the entrance? the door burst open... A man with a tall and huge physique... he had a square jaw and dark, brown and greenish skin that resembled that of the shit we had seen floating in the drains not long ago... there were also white spots that grew all over his body, which coupled with his contrasting white teeth that laid in contrast to his dark complexion, formed a gruesome image...

"what brings you back? Whacko?" Liat drew his blade... "Prepare ya bullets hunter... thats mushroomman..."

2007-08-20T11:30:00.001+08:00

feeling damn sick now... stupid flu... then just wrote chapter 5 but cannot post... WHYY???!!! testing testing

2007-08-19T12:28:00.000+08:00

chapter 5- old times...

Damnit... where is he hiding now... lost track of him as he had cut through this corner of the street... i surveryed the two blocks of apartments at this dead end... i missed katie... and even more... cherylene... she was flying away to canada... and she was going to bring katie away too... this was my job assignment... and also my last chance to redeem myself as a capable employee, husband and father... a social worker who had dedicated her life to making the lives of others better... mending broken families with nothing but passion... amidst a daunting pile of work, meagre wages and an unrelenting government bent at cutting state welfare expenditure... a woman that was most strong and understanding by any standards... the inability to hold together her own family broke Cherylene's heart... if only i could get this done 2nite... i can go back to them... and lead a normal life once more...

A deafening gunshot pierced through the air as i nimbly dodged the bullets by bending my upper body backwards... i then stood up immediately and used my silver blade to deflect the next pair of bullets... having judged the trajectory of the bullets and the timelag between the bullets and sound, i estimated his distance and direction... jumping towards the wall behind me, i kicked and propelled myself high into the air with a back flip, before rotating my upper body to lash out using my blade... upon landing i saw him trying to gain higher ground through the firemen's ladder by the side of the block of apartments...

I chased his all the way to the rooftop and he was hiding amadegain... he was waiting for the right opportunity to shoot... i had no personal grudge against him but i was paid good money to do this... money in which I can buy katie a grand piano with... money in which i can use to end the verbal abuse spiteful parents subject cherylene to... Cherylene would never have removed thoses children from their homes without sound reasoning... just like how she was forced to decide upon taking katie to Canada after katie had saw my suit stained and dripping with fresh blood...

I focused and started singing... i knew my ability to hypnotise and force an unsuspecting foe to sleep would force him to surface... before long i heard 2 consecutive gunshots that made my singing inaudible... I then felt a heavy blow on my stomach... it was his gunbutt... I then slashed upwards, forcing him to halt my blade using his silver shotgun... one that he fired with precision from far and maneuvered skilfully even in close combat... "You shldnt be helping him!!!" "I just want my life back!!!" After exchanging a series of blows, a heavy swing of the gunbutt sent me reeling... I thought i would hear a gunshot and that everything would now end... yet i heard onli hurried and fading footsteps...

After what seemed like forever, I heard a chopper and saw a blinding spotlight... "you are coming with us, do not panick or resist." I raised my eyes and barely saw the side of the chopper... it wrote "X.H.".. i heard the static noises coming from some communication device... i could not make out what the person was saying... but what came next from the person beside me was crystal clear... "mission failed".

2007-08-19T11:57:00.000+08:00

i decided to have a blog entry similar to huihuang's 2dae... i dunno why... juz a random feeling haha

saturdae. marina watch fireworks, people many many, almost fainted.
sit on staircase, pple still keep squeezing past, sian.
woah, but later fireworks super chio.
watch with cherylene makes the fireworkes even more chioer and the goodest fireworks i ever saw.
green tea ice cream, yumyum.
slack at polar when we were drinking seven eleven big gulp and nothing from polar.
feeling sick now. just saw doctor.
too much soft drinks plus kimchi soup is a nono for throat.
weiliat fight fight fight!!! let god's child dance for me!!!

2007-08-17T01:36:00.000+08:00

our room...
2nd day at snorkling...
showcasing my fats

me and cher waiting for the stupid bus!!!!
9 hr bus ride man!!! sibae sian!!!
my pre tanning bai zan jee body on a hammock...
me and cher!!! hahaha
a gd attempt by me using the self timer of cher's HP... haha

Hmm... here are just a few pics of me and cher at redang... and the smaller ones i copied outta facebook so like smaller lo... freaking lotsa pics man... like 70+... i dun have all of them yet also la... hahaha... but they are all uploaded onto my facebook... if ya guys wanna see he pics can go there la...

Aniwae Redang is realli damn fun!!! snorkling see all sorts of cute and beautiful fishes... then try and catch them they keep swimming away... hahaha... all damn brightly coloured wan.. n i even saw a swordfish... then 2nd dae of snorkling i even gotta feed the fish underwater man!!! they were like swarming myhands til cannt see anythg hahaha... then we play darts, suntan, play pingpong, sing free ktv, watch stars... kayak... then all meals included... shuang!!! then all the meals and soup are like super home made fod even though dun have like very special dishes... then everytime mealtimes they will go arnd ringg a bell and shouting 'makan'!!! hahaha... ooo... me and cher even watched an Arsenal match 2gether there... and cher was like shouting like cazy ahahaha... the bus ride freaking long la... but we tok kok, sleep abit... then do random shit like compete race to seven for peeling seven intact gaolaks we bought... hahaha...

2dae went wif cher to vivo to watch the secret... walao... i must admit that jay cho is quite a genius... it was one feaking gd show... and to listen to the song jay chou wrote for the movie after it ended every gap in the lyrics was filled in such that i was damn overwhelmed by the link forming in my brain... every single word in the lyrics drawing a link with the movie's plot... n felt abit sad la... cuz that time my song was suposed to have al the gaps plugged in by the MTV... but KE7 did a damn shiittyy job... so i feel damn sian... plus i remember how my pianist screw up... sigh...

its a gd movie... catch it!!!!

2007-08-15T23:31:00.000+08:00

chapter 4- the mansion

Xinhong is my name... i am the director of X.H. enterprises... or rather... Xtacy Humsuplou is the director... just that there are not many who know that the two names actually belong to the same person... Xtacy Humsuplou... a regular at cake and ribbon cutting ceremonies... famous in the local press as the philanthropist who donates millions to aid the poor and needy... the mayor of Pasereez... an inspiration for millions of Pasereez citizens... ultimately, a cyborg controlled by me..

Damn that idiot... deserving of an oscar for his campaigning acts... a person whose crimes are so well covered up that i have had no chance to refute his claims that he will do everything he can to keep this city safe and crime free... a person whose demeanor is picture perfect that the mob seem to think he will can wrench the mayor's hot seat from Xtacy Humsuplou... but it will be beyond his wildest dreams that me, Xinhong is realli the mayor... n they do not call me the bear for nothg... in the world of business... where my glory days laid... every cent was never earned without a fight... and for my liking towards having huge bears reared in my mansion's cave...i was nicknamed the bear... until that insolent guy had spoiled my plans... forced my business to fail and forced me to migrate to escape the pursuit of the law... i swear revenge... i promise myself everyday that i will shoot him with the very same shotgun that had ended the life of my true love, beetin... who blocked those two silver bullets for me...

Meanwhile... I need to retain my position as the mayor... so that i will be able to continue manipulating the press and the police... making them lunge at my nemesis like as easily as a puppet master flicking his fingers... and for this I am making final preparations... to execute the 2nd last stage of my plan... to plunge this town into a crisis... so that Xtacy Humsuplou will be the savior... so that they wil understand that their fates rest in my hands...

i stroke the white fur of my huge pet that is sleeping soundly beside me... this town is a town filled with sad pple aniwae... it would not hurt them to give them a reason... to laugh... aint it?

2007-08-14T22:40:00.000+08:00

chapter 3... Prison

I held my diary tightly in my hand... pages that have turned yellow through my years in what has become my home... pictures that were my only source of human contact... besides those pairs of nonchalant eyes of course... and the dreams that make me smile... just to wake up and cry over the false reality i fail to hold on to everytime i open my eyes... Katie... she should be 19 now... or should she be 21??? i dunno... i realli dun...

that pair of eyes made contact with mine briefly then disappeared instantaeously... the usual metal hinge creaked... followed by that smell that used to invoke disgust in the initial stages... I gulped down whatever there was in the steel bowl routinely... desensitized by time which i have lost track of in this grey cell... and the urge to live on... and see Katie just once more... yet if i had this chance, i wasnt even sure if she wanted to see me... and how was she doing??? Is she in a foster home??? Is she adopted or under institutional care??? was she taken in by the facade that those politicians put up in their attempt to snuff me out???

Life was hard then but i had katie... who waited faithfully at the backstage... waiting for me to finish my performance every night... i wrote songs and sang them... sometimes they fell on deaf ears yet i was always rejuvenated by the nights when i was appreciated... when the bustling crowd turned quiet as i started singing... when that soft applause followed after my song ended... I had tried to lead a normal life... one they had promised me... yet they lied... if only i could get out... perhaps i would put my silver blade through his numb conscience... and let the blood run so that the injustices Pasereez was hidden from would be righted...

I heard a loud boom... bits of wire and charred metal fell to the ground, leaving a hole in the thick metal door that had confined me to the wretched hells of these grey walls... the walls that had prevented me from telling the world that "whacko laotiko" was all but an execuse to lock up someone who they felt knew too much...

"I need ya help, liat... shall we?" That familar and awkward english accent and pronounciation shocked me... I ran... I was trembling from fear and excitement... the man i had tried to kill for years just saved me... i could not think anymore... becuz all i saw in my mind was... embracing katie once more....

2007-08-10T14:12:00.000+08:00

Chapter 2- getting high

Stuffy... musky...and a sweet but somewhat erogenic fragrance flooding the chambers... purplish cylinders that are bubbling... I look around in amazement... wondering what this new facility holds... perfume? soft drinks? it was hard to realli take a good look into the little details as i was on the rooftop, trying hard to balance myself... "X.H. enterprises"... hacked the government systems this afternoon while taking some respite off my repeated losses at DOTA, courtesy of Professor "ironman" aka Jeff Richards... J.R. has been a long time pal since secondary days... and he is really a computer geek... he aced all the modules he took in university... anything below the best score was really considered an under-achievement by himself... as for me... hahaha... i play DOTA with my com, n pray it does not get any viruses, thats all i noe... =) X.H. really seemd like a legal and righteous firm... it has a long list of charitable organisations benefitting from it... but isnt it suposed to be dealing with import and export of meat for Pasereez? Whatever i am seeing so far isnt realli fitting the description...

i walk past rows and rows of cylinders filled with purple cylinders... there were also huge machines that had buttons and gadgets that were far beyond my comprehension... i decided that i needed a sample of this fluid... at least J.R. would give me some answers... "STOP WHERE YOU ARE!!!" i turned only to see two bulky and muscular men running after me... they were wearing grey technician suits with X.H. printed across their breast pockets... they seemed to be holding some form of rifle and were carrying what seemed like a gas tank... seeing their faces covered with an oxygen mask wasnt a good sign... what they were gonna release upon me was gonna be something they did not like themselves...

i ran as fast as my legs could take me... ive have had fitter times... when running was a breeze... when it was a shame for any soldier with some sense of pride to not pass the fitness test... when my friend laughed out for the whole world to hear over a cup of soya bean when i told him that he is slow after clocking a miserable 13+ timing for my 2.4km run... suddenly, the sweet fragrance that had filled my nose got thicker and heavier... "U WUN GET AWAY!!!" Curse those dogs that were after me... they have already released the gas, having gained greater proximity from me...

i was reaching the rope that i had used to lower myself from the top just now... escape was more or less secured... However, my body was starting to feel like it is incinerating from within... i started to giggle uncontrollably... in some sense, i was feeling happy... very happy... yet i was gradually losing control over my lower body too, my legs felt rubbery... i used what was left in me and hoisted myself up to safety... then jumped down, breaking the fall with a roll on the ground before i took off on my bike...

whatever i had felt back then... i could only be sure that... X.H. enterprises smells very fishy... or for that matter, deadly... I sped towards J.R.'s lab... i was near... but i was losing control over my body... i saw my bike skid and my silver shotgun landed with a loud thud... I could not stand up... I could not...

2007-08-10T12:35:00.000+08:00

CHAPTER1 - hunter on the prowl...

Rainy days... i hate rainy days... no basketball, eating macdonalds delivery... which means soggy fries... wishing that there will be curry potato and otah... wishing the chilly and freezing memories of the past would be all burnt up by the burning curry that gushes down my windpipe... leaving only memories as good as the aftertaste as i savour the 10 consecutive otahs i stuff down my throat in seconds...

Shotgun... bullets... checked... i wear my leather jacket and reach for my keys quietly... trying not to wake my family that is in deep slumber... looked into the mirror before i left... dark Agnes B jacket, GAP denim, green Nike shoes... shoes that i have run with so often, occasionally to save my own skin... more often to tear the skins of those freaks that terrorise Pasereez City... i looked at my bleached hair that stood out in my attire... but then again, i need no camouflage... i always encourage my enemies to look for me... saves me the hassle...

i plug on my IPOD earpieces as my vintage bike speeds aff into the darkness that follows... Nana OST never fails to cleanse my soul, refilling it with a sense of justice whenever fatigue caused it to waver... then again... i cannot stop... i just cant... the chaos and screams that have plagued this town these days... have all served to make wad i used to love about riding away in the night in Pasereez... the song of nightbirds and the tranquility of the night... all these are now just embellishments to the mess i try to clean every night... the reality i try so hard to didguise every night... the false reality that the foolish Pasereez politicians use to earn another day of victory at the polls...

i love peace, birds and greenery... and for all these i will fight, fight and fight... the "HH" insignia on the back of the jacket feels like tonnes on my back... "horny hunter"... somthing the press has come up with when they have sporadically spotted a silver shotgun putting holes through the ones they believe to be innocent and pure... not a very glamorous name but seriously, I dun even give a shit...

Huihuang... tats realli my real name... I smell a very familar scent... so... let the hunt begin

2007-08-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

message to cher hahaha... with a smiley face and salmon tongue...
beautiful pic from where we looked at the fireworks...
FIREWOEKSSSSSS!!!!!
me and cher looking singaporeans in red!!!!!

Lilies!!!!
Lillliiiessss!!!! hahhha
my version of the singapore dish....
another angle... hahaha.. best chef award for me???

am tryg to blog now while toking to cher hahha.. super tryg to train my multi tasking skils... but then again the other time i switched on my loudspeaker n tok to cher while showering.. tats even more challenging man... haaha... so this is nothg.. heh

aniwae.. super long never blog liao... yup... since my lame attempt to forge HK pics hahaha... tuesday met up with wenjie go kayaking... damn fun!!!! xing and hh, can ya guys go with me pls!!!! hhahaha... me n wenjie kayak til the middle of the sea... then lie there and tan... hahhaa... then tok kok in the middle of the sea... majiam the chivas advertisment... aftre ta we ate orh jian, satay, chicken chop and hokkien mee... shiok ah... then after that went to cher's fren's place for bbq and eat somemore... FAT!!! hahaha... then there was this uncle who had GPS on his cab but still canot find his way t my destination... then he stil never auto give discount lo... grrrrrr...

ytd went to cher's fren's engagement party... got frced to sing in front of all of them... n i was damn traumatised when one of them started playing my song's MP3... hahha... aniwae... my onli comment for that party is... i asked a tailor in orchard 2dae... a suit costs $250... so 700 is abita... hahaha

2dae went out with cher to watch firewks!!!! fraking nice man!!! we wanted to walk to nicoll highway and see but... cher sugested some breakwater nera the highway.. it was jammed packed wif pple but the view was like.. OMG!!! hahaha... then cher told me she is like damn in loive with parades as she was from the uniform group last time hahahah... i think i guy oso not so garang lo... but HH oso love parades... maybe its becus of all the 'H's... SEDEEEEE.. HIAH!!... SENANDEEEE... HHEEE!!!! KEKENAN... LLOOOOOO...HHUUAASSS!!! ahahhaha...

REDANG!!!! 2 more daes.. YAY!!!! =) n CONGRATS!!! may everythg turn out smooth for u 2 ahead!!! ahahahha... W.X.B.H... weiliat xiong beetin huihuang, BEST FRENS FOREVER!!! hmm... W.X.B.H... Wanang Xi Bae Horny??? hhahahaha

2007-08-03T20:48:00.000+08:00

me and cher's like 3rd try for the photo... haha
4th try!!! then cher said this pic i look very sweet, n more feminine than her... diaozzz
repulse bay... do the rocks look like a dragon???
the Hongkong weather station
a ship cruising past repulse bay...

me and cher's 2nd try...

Hong Kong's version of the MRT...

another repulse bay shot...
me and cher in the wind!!!!

WALAO eh!!! go Hong Kong never even tell us silent silent like tat go liao... BOOJJIIIOOOO!!!! Now still blogging from HK to showoff his pictures... wad the hell!!!! Eh, Huihuang and Xiong, SHUDDUPPP la!!! hahaha... i never tell u guys, SOOOO WAAADDD????!!! aniwae these are sme of the pics that we took fron repulse bay (qian shui wan) in HK... some pics are wad we took in a restaurant...

hmmm... THink cher is full of random shit la, hahahhaa... and basically WE are damn random... hahhaa... so actualli, me and cher were walking around Vivo city then we were gettg bored... then she commented that the scenery here looks like overseas... then i had a stupid idea!!! post these pics and like pretend that i took them at repulse bay!!! hahaha... aniwae i think ya guys shld be not so stupid as 2 believe me rite??? hahaha... and the green train thingy is the monorail to sentosa...

wanted to go swimming but cher was unwell... last time i swam 16laps with cher lo.... cz i was so motivated by her... the first lap i started way ahead, then when i pop my head outta the water, she alreadi there man, WTH!!! next time swim ill gambate!!! ahahaha... we watched ALONE 2dae.. seriously, the plot and twist to the story is not bad... its about the story of a pair of seperated siamese twins... SCCAARRYY!!! me and cher almost died man, seriously hahahah... then after tat we walked around and din noe wadta do... then cher suddenly said "hey lets take the monorail thingy and try la!!!" so out of the blue, outa nowhere, we suddenly went to sentosa liao... hahaha... then we walked the beach area, found a place to sit down... and just "la liang"... after tat we left and she went to meet her fren... i think me and cher everytime go out never realli plan wan oso hahaha... just whack... i kindof like tat... cuz teres the element of surprise and oooo man, planning the whole itinery for a day out reallis sux... hahaha...

havent plan wad to do at Redang... cher not planning oso... so go there whack hahaha... next up we will be looking at cambodia and myanmar or somethg... n just go n whack 2!!! hahaha... then again, cya guys arnd!!! i go bathe liao!!!

2007-08-03T11:49:00.000+08:00

present from mazzyyy

home made brownies from mazzy... ya r so sweet!!!! **mmMMuuaCkkZZ**
close ups on my brownies!!!
parker pen from ezrina and tabby!!!!
random pressie from cher...

woah... 2dae realli just feel like slacking in bed and dun wake up... why izzit i dun work animore i still wake up so early!!! buay tahan... and there were other factors to why i din feel like waking up la... but well... i still did after a while la... aniwae... im like freaking broke now due to the internship's low pay... but wad the hell... i think i gained a whole lot compared to many who did telemarketg or even data entry or wadever...Child protection work.... something tat is realli hard to perfect... but the people in this line... i have onli one word la, RESPECT... everyday ya face the task of trying to make a depressing situation happier... trying to salvage wadever's left of a tragic ending... n in some cases, when we are lucky enuf, change the ending..

aniwae.. got these pressies from Mazzy, dear and ezrina and tabby!!! OMG the brownies are like out of this world la... it just tatses freaking nice... chocalate... walnut... hhahahaha... after tat she still went to buy me another present and wrote me a card, shes just soooo sweeet la... hahaha... then when i thot my superior was like neglectg me... she bought me a parker pen man!!! damn touched... and for all the officers that had helped me or brought me out on fieldwork... i bought them a rose each and wrote them cards... walao... use a lotttaaa effort man.... as for cher... hahaha... she compiled a cd with her favorite titles and used these titles to fit into a story tat writes abt us.. shes a genius la, hahaha... eh im not bad too k... i wrote a whole letter tat explains wad paper and pen and pencil all mean... hahaha... nvm if ya guys dunno wad i toking abt hahaha, I DUN CARE OSO!!!

ytd was eating with cher.... we ordered fried rice and she said she hated the peas, corn and carrot in the rice tat kinda shit... after eatg a while i clamped her chopsticks with my chopsticks... then she said fight chopsticks she sure lose wan in terms of skills... hahaha... so i chose a small green pea and on the count of three, we tried to see who can pick it up with our chopsticks first... then we 'giao lai giao ke' n wooohhooo... suddenly alota rice flew out to all over the table... wahahahha... then we quickly ran lo hahahha...

tats all... cya folks...

2007-07-29T11:55:00.000+08:00

was toking with cher on the phone... hahha... it was an unique experience...

she bought a bikini from top shop on impulse, despite we having bought one for our redang trip already last week only...

but she shops with precision and efficiency, going full force to buy what we had to buy that day...

she pouts and whines about stuff and work like many others... (in fact i do too, hahah)

when shes bored, she watches soccer, basketball, tennis, golf, table tennis, badminton, beach volleyball...

after a day's work she watches korean drama DVDs and other ou xiang ju... (tat i do wach abit but rarely)

she uses chim angmoh words like... shit, its too chim, i cant even understand... (HH dun even needa try, =p wahahhaha)

but she speaks Hokkien to her ah ma and even says abt army stuff which she picked up when she was still a SAF scholar before they down her PES...

she reads the "New Paper" from the back and deems the front part of it worthless to read...

shes a big fan of Man U and can explain the offside rule to me clearly...

shes a social work major... n just had her internship ended... but our boss at child protection made her stay for another month as a casual staff (more pay than me now!!!! GGrrr hahaha)

but she goes pubbing, clubs abit and is always ready to share a pint of Hoegarden with me... (maybe other social workers r this happeng too, i dunno, hahaha)

we went KTV yesterdae... we were thinking of watching a movie but failed... n she said that we can go her friend's place to bake cookies together...

2dae never go out, cuz shes going dragonboating with her team mates, n shes very eager to get a tan... (but its raining.... so, well, hahaha)

she calls herself miss bipolar... hmmm... its a gd name =) hahhaaha

2007-07-24T20:42:00.000+08:00

my pressies and notes i got from this internship!!! hahahaha
ICHIGO!!!! thanx magdeline taijo!!!! =)
another beautiful bleach poster, compliments from mag =)

just wanna thank u mag!!!! for all ya gifts!!!! realli dunno wad to get for u man!!! jialat!! hahahha... its been fun to haveya arnd... =)

2dae is another stupid day at work la... dull n monotonous... the onli highlight of the day is go lnch wif dear hahahha... after tat wanted to send dear hm... but she told me she live ang mo kio very inconvenient for me, onl allow me to ake MRT wif her to Ang mokio then she went hm herself... sigh, its when she is so understandg tat all the more i felt like sendg her hm... =)

was abit disturbed 2dae... cuz dear keep saying i very 38... hahaha... but she said thats wad she likes abt me oso... cuz im very real... i hate to lie, i absolutely hate to n i suck at it too... wadever it is, i just wanna thank u dear, because i do not needa force myself to do anythg... bcause i can be the real me in front of u... thanx!!! =)

all my frens out there who are going thru rough times... may a rough times end soon =)

2007-07-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

a fact hahah

eng joe looking like an aqua
xiong n huihuang n our uno stacko game!!!
me n dear... gd photography skills from eng joe!!! hahaha
Lendg cher to Eng joe for awhile

Eng joe's gf????!!!!!
XIONG LOSES!!!!!! wahahahaha
engjoe... dunno doing wad
DDoooOOO DDdDDiiioOOkkk GGuuuuIIIII!!!!

had a very good weekend man hahahha... satudae i took IPPT at bedok FCC... Pullups: 9, shuttle run: 10.0s, situps: 42 (with 13s left hahhaha), 2.4K: 11min28s, (HUIHUANG SUUUXXX!!!! hahahah), SBJ: 216 (walao, as usual, heng heng just pass)... $100!!! better than nothing la, can sponsor my Redang snorkling trip with dear hahaha...

after tat met dear at paragon to meet her frens... woah, super ang moh pai ah... hahaha, then dear was like damn tense, scared we cannt click la, hahaha... but well, im such a nice guy... plus my ENGERISH is so powerer the full man, sure can click rite??? hahahah... thot they will grill me or somethg la... but they seem qte ok... despite them playg my song out loud in public (which i dun mind really, hahaha), they din attempt too many stunts... but eng joe was with me la, then he keep kajiaoing, ggrrrrr...

after tat meet huihuang n xiong to play monopoly... walao... i bankrupt again man... all thanx to stupid xiong go n trade with dear n let her like build hotel on the parliament hse... walao.... step onto it once $20000 man!!!!!??? not to mention i went to jail like a million times man... god's child is falling down man... but it was damn fun la!!! hahahah... after tat we played uno stacko... n had 5star chix rice for dinner.. after tat send engjoe hm then 3 of us went to play pool after cherylene went home for dinner... walao... huihuang receive SMS from tissue, "POWER of love"... Xiong "losing in the love battlefield, killing everyone in the ball game", weiliat is like, "BLINDED by love" cannot aim... end up keep losing to them... damnit, cherylene u bo zho gang!!! hahahahah...

On sundae i met dear in the noon... supposed to rollerblade wan, then walao, rain at bishan park... but its still a gd day!!! we boked tickets for our Redang trip finally, shopped with a drive and purpose and finally found a bikini tat dear like... can go tanning in redang!!!! YYYAAAYYY!!!! =) after tat we played arcade, then eat mala steambt til our stomach like gonna explode soon... super shiok, targeted and focused shopping... hahaha...

2dae work sucked BBIIGGG time, but wad the hell, its just 6 more days!!! 2dae my driving instructor lemme drive home!!!! =) haaha private instructors ROXXX!!!! plus its so mch cheaper... cant believe i stupidly open account tat time at driving center, sigh... aniwae!!! weiliat jiayou!!!! i fear no Ez_R_IN_!!! hahahaha

2007-07-18T21:10:00.000+08:00

me and xiong's rd 2 of tau huay zui at geylang!!!!
i promised to let xiong be my gf for one evening... hahaha, steady rite.. sorry dear =)
me and dear at toa payoh lorong 1... banana walnut muffin!!! =)
finally sucessfully used the self timer from my hp after many tries..

woah... ytd kena fly plane, 2dae oso kena fly plane... jeslyn and yilynn... better be careful!!! wahahahaha... nvm, end up meet xiong to "lakopi" or rather "lasoyabean" hahaha... HH got tuition la... but aniwaes, men's talk, boys cannt listen!!! wahahaha... feel kinda glad after talking wif xiong... used to feel that im like a monster or somethg... so im ok i guess... nvm, wadever happens got me n HH, we r BRA thers... hahaha, tats why i let xiong be my gf one day... put him as HP wallpaper hahaha... **Xiong gives drop jaw look** haha

2dae felt damn F up at work la... i think my supervisor is F up la... as in its gd that she is finally giving me feedback now, replying at alarming speed whe she has ignored me for so long... bt now like abit late to make everythg sui sui oso rite... but wad the hell.. tahan 2 more weeks!!! grrrr... luckily dear droped by office for surprise visit la... to clear her stuff... then she bought me ai xin milo... =) after tat she went with me to lorong one for lunch... hahaha... felt sssooooo much beter for the rest of the day... hahaha... driving went well too... drove to bedok 2dae and started learning reversing...

2ml is thursdae!!! 2 more days to IPPT... was talking to YIP online... he take evning wasted, if not can see him run past me with his tongue stuck out like jordan like last time hahahha... miss eeyang oso, n guai guai lionel... n wang, hahahah... always miss their FDS outings, damn!!! but nvm!!! 2ml meeting my supervisor to clear up stuff... then chiong my work, then can watch movie with darling!!! =) GAMBATE WEILIAT!!!! chiong ah!!!!!! =) and someone pls remind me to do bidding man... its coming n tat totally sux!!! hahha

2007-07-16T21:36:00.000+08:00

my tiger soft toy!!!

msn on tissue at TCC =p
hui hui wif my tiger on top hahaha
iroh's bdae cake!!!!
kawaii brothers!!!! =)

hahaha... had a damn fun weekend man seriously... bball wif xiong n hh... watched harry potter with cherylene and hh n X... tats for saturdae... on sundae... i had katong laksa!!! with lotsa chilli... haha... after eatg laksa, cher n me joind hh and X for KTV at teo heng!!! walao... huihuang, ya "think of me" rox la!!!!! cher n me n X laugh til wanna die man!!! thanx hh for all the fun n joy u bring to my life!!! i love u huihuang!!!!! **dragonboat oar strikes weiliat's head** wahahaha... ok, hh, ya r second... erm... i love xiong more... ok ya third... erm... theres linjie, jasmine, victoria... erm, ok la... huihuang, i still pronounce u 2nd on par wif xiong!!!! steady rite??? hahaha **frying pan hits weiliat's head** ok... mum's 1st, everyone one position dwn pls... hahahah... aniwaes, we played monopoly 2gether after tat n xiong was like walao... build hotel man... all thanx to my bugis lo =p nxt time im gonna make u bankrupt!!!!

2ml meet yilynn for dinner... hope shes not emo over JR animore... sigh... then jeslyn on wed after driving for supper, thrsdae meet cher for movies, fridae driving... sat IPPT!!!!! OOOMMMGGGG!!!! (im so dead)... n monopoly again!!! sundae, blading n tanning wif cher!! =) meanwhile, work is piling up... MCYS, here i come 2ml!!!!!! RRROOOAAARRR!!!!

2007-07-08T22:35:00.000+08:00

waves behind the boat =)

OMG... me n cherylene almost got lost... finaly found chek jawa!!!!
triumphant at chek jawa hahaha
bedok hong gan dua si guae!!!
we took this in the day man hahaha... why look like at nite
rainbow!!! not ery obvious tat kind hahaha

east coast mac!!!
limin driving bus hahha

me n kee!!!
lynn tryg to capture the bougainvilla park heh
bouganvilla!!!

wow.. ytd, me n yilynn supposed to rolerblading man.. then she complain she tired lo... so end up we eat subway then after tat we cycle hahah... but cycle double bike man... but she very power la, she still put in alota effort... then we passed by a bougainvilla park at east coast after drinking coconut juice at the hawker... pretty rite??? then went to beach hut vivsit ah kae n rhoda... n got free passionfruit soda and diet coke!!! hhahahah... thanx boss for even keping me for dinner =)hahaha.. after tat i met huihuang at parkway to play pool!!!! ahahaahha... i won a "best of 7" and "race to 7" man!!! sung ah!!! super off form ytd hahaha, power!!!!

2dae morning woke up early to eat beach hut breakfast wif my mum... woah, damn shiok man, this time im not a waiter, im kiaokahing... ej eat alot man... hahhaa... then the bill came and was 40+... haha... then i disturb the new waitress for discount and she asked my boss.. it became 11 bucks!! hahaha... thanx chit again!!!

walao... 2dae go pulau ubin with cherylene oso... freaking shiok man!!! hahhaa... the slopes are like... woohhooo... not or the weak man... then we reached chek jawa... the scenery quite shiok, then we chatted and it started to rain.. haha... then we just let the rain pour lo.. damn fun... havent been in the rain since secondary when i play bball... hahha... after tat we went on the muddy trails and my shirt was... white wif brown pokka dots... hahaha... and my shoes soaked like in BMT march tat time rain hahahha... after tat eat at pulau ubin... the "gong gong" quite shiok man... haha, i master how to giao the meat out liao...

FUN FUN FUN WEEKEND!!!! hahahah

2007-07-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

me n jasmine at hokaiddo steamboat restaurant!!!!

look at my mountain of beef... actualli its a ball of cabbage hidden below hahahha
jasmine toh's seafood platter... yummy...
the prawn tat jasmine peeled for me =p hahahhaha

woah 2dae had a frustratg day at work man... damn it... i was so slack i started playg game and sleeping in the library... was thinking wad i am gonna do when cherylene, eileen and sam go man... whos gonna have lunch wif me??? sigh...then il be left with the laojiaos... hahahha... n rotting at work... they r leaving next week man... but cherylene promised to make time to have lunch wif me =) hahaha

2dae went steamboat wif jasmine toh... walao... its damn nice, just see the pictures... before tat got very nice starters... there is some egg tat is like braised... but when i cut it open, inside is watery n golden... OMG... hahaha... then after that got desert which jasmine toh destryed bfore i can take pictures hahahha... hokkaido ice cream and pearl harbor that is like mango somethg, damn nice... have taken a liking for mango over the yrs... hahaha... after tat went to arcade wif jas... hahaha... 2ml my 2nd lesson at driving!!!! yoohooo... hope ill not like wad the instructor say, "bing bing bang bang" hahhaa... meaning accident =p

2007-06-29T23:17:00.000+08:00

OP gal claudia and me at bishan park!!!! hahahah
me and cherylene at villa bali...

recently have been really rotting at work man... becuz my supervisors are rarely arnd n dun gimmem much work to do hahaha... then yarlozz everydae just wait for lunchtime... then i was told to make kindof a movie fr the rollerbladg, rock climbg n stuff and so i did lo hahahha... use movie maker la... quite lousy but, hahaha, iquite like it though

aniwae went wif cherylene to this pub at villa bali.... its damn uuluu... at alexandra road... we even almost got lost but... OMG... that place is freaking romantic man... its like sipping chardonnay in the middle of a jungle like tat... its like so close to nature... super nice place to chill n tok kok... the kilkenny was alos... wooo... for more details can go google the place...

kk, stupid huihuang stop complaining i never update hahaha... bball time 2ml!!!! n hpefully i can rollerblade soon... yilynn dun fly plane pls ahahahha

2007-06-23T12:29:00.000+08:00

miisssss kawwwaaaiiiii!!! =)
rollerblading at bishan park!!
the most handsome n seh blader in the world wahahahaha

went blading with the kids ytd... was the first time that i joined them in blading... i can kinda move now but my v walk is reall still damn chui la hahahha... but actualli it was damn fun la... i always wanted to join them rather tan supervise them by the side... but nonetheless, 2ml is their last lesson cuz school is startg nxt week... was very touched la, cuz the kids helped me up whenever i fall down... then a few offered tips for me... sabrina even din join the rest in the games just to teach me blading... though shes just 10 and not very gd at teachg, i felt very touched by their small acts of kindnes la, hahaha... will miss them alot man...

ytd was supposed to go ktv wif my intern frens... then eileen had somethg on and samantha left early too.. left me n cherylene... so we decided to go pubbing lo... walao damn sian, the pub was like new, then the mikes are spoilt, then their credit card system was not up yet gotta pay by cash... pissed man... but nonetheless had a great time la... hahaha...

ytd as toking to my intern frens, they said i am very humorous and keep them laughing the whole day... but they say the way i am maks gals feel very at home... but hence, i will make alota female good frens n not attract gals to like me... cuz im kindof not so manly in my character... as in no chauvinism, more sensitive and stuff, hahaha... aniwaes, think theres no pt to change myself to atract gals la... just see how thgs go ba... hahaha slowly wait lo...

2007-06-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

Posers haha... n kinda acting cute...
3 hunks and a peeping tom?
me n super cute boy haha

Me eating chicken rice wif the kids after rock climbing session...
oooo...hmm... my obasan rapping??? wahahaha

hey guys... sorry i damn long never update my blog man... tats just me... sometimes feeling like blogging then will blog everydae... when lazy then totally never blog... aniwae recently im working partime and get to see and deal with children very often... sometimes we go rollerblading, rock climbing n stuff... they r really damn cute... n thru this job i really learn alot of stuff... after all i really love children and haha, when i saw my cousin's marriage photos on her blog, really wish that i can get married soon too...

ironically, i am now single and available... so, well, its gonna be a long time before i get married haha... so beetin n xiong, janice lee n mingle... huihuang n aman... no lah, i just mean the first two couples, hahaha, GAMBATE!!!! =) aniwae, have been really thinking alot recently... i think compromises are truly made not by forcing ourself to behave in a certain way when in our mind we have always thot that wadever the other party thinks is ridiculous... i think when trying to compromise, we must always think of as many reasons as possible as to why the other party thinks differently from ourself n rationalise that party's beliefs that are different from ourself... only then can one compromise without feeling resentment...

well, hope to see little bears and little sotongs soon, haha... hmm, then again xiong plus beetin... beartongs??? haha

2007-05-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

omg... super long never blog liao... can tell how bored i am from seeing a new post here... going to sing ktv 2ml!!!! at last man... hehehehe, with my ex... cl1101e classmates, haha caught u there wad were u thinking??? =p then after tat go mcys building for interview for the internship, muhahahaha... prison break is my staple food these daes n omg its realli damn exciting... but thats wad makes it so irritatg cuz the website keeps hanging... then stupid singnet keep disconnectg... grrrrrr... sigh, without hall life its realli gettg abita dull, hahaha... hopefully i can start my internship nxt week!!!! then thgs will start falling into place muhaahahhaha... if this comes thru it will look quite nice on my resume hahahah... but then again, the idea of working with child protection services sounds realli xciting man... hahaha cant wait for it t start =)

2007-04-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

seriously i think my blog is rotting haha... actualli it doesnt take much time to blog even everydae... but i guess ill just pen down the more impt thots...

yestrdae some stuff happened and it caused me to think abt some things... some not so gd memories... i remember how my dad n mum quarrelled over monetary issues and kinda got seperated until my dad realised he had cancer... it must have been kinda hard for my dad... one brought up with the stereotypes that the guy should be the head of the household and that the guy shld contribute more to the household income... when my mum lent 20k to my uncle and told him it should not concern my dad since it was her money... i guess he was helpless and perhaps very much in anguish for earning much lesser than my mum... not that i felt that my mum was wrongin lending my uncle money to tide him over the crisis he was facing... but my dad must have gone thru tough times too...

sometimes i feel very hard pressed not to repeat wad happened to my dad... i study hard in hope that ill have a high enuf income... an income that is up to expectations of not myself, but more of to satisfy the expectations of those arnd me... gonna go for the teachg award interview nxt week... n i aint even sure i realli wanna be a teacher... its realli more for the money i guess, n the conflicts i can escape from with this money, at least for some time i hope...

perhaps its just me... a very stingy person who does not like to spend... i cant live with the idea that ill soon be broke and just go ahead spending, without knowing for sure that money will be coming in for me... n i just dun like to take money from my mum... cuz its realli hard earned money since shes taking 2 jobs...

i see tough times ahead when i am in year 3 unless i get the teaching award... n have overcome great obstacles to have a very great relationship now, one that i hope will go all the way... then again i shall not think too much, since its just some random thots.

2007-03-21T01:24:00.000+08:00

sigh.... feeling abit emo and kinda jealous now... was talking to a fren on msn...she flew to england to find her bf... then she woke up at 5 to make his fav hot chocolate, tidied up his room, n made the bed and breakfast... haha... not that i am chauvinistic lah, but i guess once in awhile, being on the eceiving end on such sweet acts of love despite doing them being very troublesome, is really a very sweet feeling... perhaps i should not just think of wanting that kinda treatment... perhaps i can learn to cook too, and cook a sumptuos meal, bake some pasta for my loved one 2... guess that wil be sweet... hehe, shall get some tips from grandma soon!!! n burn down my hall kitchen for that matter =) guess its the small acts of love that make a relationship go log and perhaps, all the way down the long journey of life???

2007-02-01T03:40:00.000+08:00

woah 2dae has been a very tiring dae man... din do much work... highlighted a few pages of research, met elaine for lunch, watched show wif her in hall, then read comics, eat dinner, watched bball, temasek won EH!!! =) then came back play badminton til 11, after that went for productions dance, supper at FS, do one reading n 10 pages from txtbk at 2plus til now... its like 4am soon... n listening to my song again n again...

received sms from gary goh saying my lyrics rox... msn siewhoon tell me the competition organisers ate her hall keep repeatg my song... abit sad that the performance flopped, but glad my music meant somethg to many out there n many thanx to all the pple hu supported me... started listening at the lyrics, n imagining myself totally in the story, seeing the irony between consecutive sentences, different phrases...

if life were to come to an end soon, will u choose to let her cry in ya arms or smile in someone else's... a guy that thru all his inabilities to even cook or make coffee properly, thru imagining his gf cooking for him, then watchg him while he does the dishes... a guy that needs n loves his gf alot... cant sleep when its quiet without her snoring away, feels disturbed when no one is nagging at him instead of feeling happy... i guess thats all the little thg that can make u miss a person very much... then to ask ya best fren to act wif u to make the one u love leave u so that she can move on, knowing that ya r leaving this world soon... the hand that ya wanted to hold on so tighly to slapping ya on the face... a promise never to lie to each other broken by ya attempt to let her leave you n go to someone else just so that she might be happier...

sometimes life is so ironic, we feel stressed when we have school, bored when we r damn free, depressed when we r attached, lonely when we r not, humans never really noe wad they want n r haunted by these ironies of life everydae... dun ya think so???

2007-01-27T03:04:00.000+08:00

life is something amazing...

sometimes we do things that defy logic, only to discover better things that seemed impossible...

sometimes we do wrong things, only to find those that forgive you becuz they truly care...

sometimes we tell ourselves to give up, only to find the one that relentlessly lends u his or her strength n support...

sometimes we hate ourselves so much, only to find that person who loves u so much for who u r...

all the little things that make life seem like reaching an end are often lessons in life that we must take... never blame oneself, acknowledge one's mistake, learn n move on... n perhaps everythg will turn out just fine... =0) cheers folks, its never the end...

2007-01-24T19:05:00.000+08:00

woah... had a gd sleep at last last nite man... baron's strong brew one can plus nasi lemak... fool proof formula for me to sleep??? haha... met huihuang n xiong for lunch... saw pingde too!!! haha then they talk abt dota non stop... i blur man... sian...

hmm... 2dae pingde helped me download "search n destroy" and "AVG"... cool man, now my com seems to be in a slightly better shape... but its still dddaaaammmmnnnnn slow n irritatg... haha... but i knew its just 256ram, yet i bought it, affter buying it regret liao but never go n change the specs... first i used "one click maintainence", then i added windows vista patch... now ive even tried AVG n searchndestry... tis weekend im goonnnaa go upgrade the ram to 1052!!!

try n try to make this laptop work... if it doesnt, i guess i have to get a new one

2007-01-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

tuition at shirley's place was rough man... she started throwing tantrums n i had to scold her... then her parents heard n started scolding her... sigh... n i start pondering on whethr to go for the teachg profession again...

aniwae it was at chai chee so i called jeslyn to see if she was at home... she told me to go to her place n find her to tok kok...we were in her room toking... she was lying on her bed n i was sitting beside her... suddenly a qn came to my mind n i asked her, "hey gal, thot u used to tell me ya rarely allow ya guy frens to ya place... n in this situation arent ya afraid i will do anythg to u??"... jes said that she simply knew that i wldnt... i dun understand, im a guy afterall... so i asked her why again... "becuz ya r simply not that type of guy"... i becoming more blur n asked why again... "becuz im neither the one u love or ya gf" then she laughed... i laughed too...

i remember huihuang once said that he feels im like very lecherous but yet im not lecherous... maybe thats wad he meant??? nice one jeslyn... guess ya noe me well... sometimes life is just so funny, n very much worth laughing at... smile smile smile... n stay happy folks, just like me =)

2007-01-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

was listening to my song... a song about how a guy hu was dying told his best fren to act wif him n pretend that he didnt love his gf animore so that she can move on in life... haha, super emo song n e finals are indeed drawing near... nxt saturdae... n perhaps i cant be in a better mentality to sing sad songs...

i guess life is full of tough decisions... i just made one 2dae, one that im very unwilling to take... but well, in life we have to cope wif upsets... in fact i feel that in life there are many type of decisions, some we can make on our own, like whether to study... others made by 2 people, like a couple gettg married, some by a large grp of pple like a board of directors...those that need more than a person we cannt control... so we can onli control the choices we can make ourselves... if we r lazy, we can choose to be not lazy... if medicine is bitter, we can choose to take it to recover, if we wanna quit somethg like smoking, we can choose to quit, if we wanna accept values that differ from ours, we can choose to accept the values or integrate them into our own n make a compromise... however, to make the choice one must first believe that the choice is right n that the choice is a possible choice... then execute it...

when my song starts, i asked "if ya life would to be nearing an end... would u choose to let the one u love cry in ya embrace or be happily hugging someone else... in my song the guy chose to be a bad guy n make the gal hate him... i tried n realised i cannt do it... but perhaps even if there is no hatred, my choice for this qn would to be anythg that can make her happier...

i hope e pple arnd me can all find true happiness, as i once told ivy before too... as long as ya r happy, everythg is ok... may everyone be happy everydae!!! =) be happy.

2007-01-18T01:43:00.000+08:00

i remember i once wrote a song abt 4 seasons... i cant realli remembr the song but i liked the bridge alot... translated into english it wld be somethg like tis...

" if time can turn, let snow float to the blue skies, fallen leaves return to trees, the sun rising from the west then set in the east, may ya tears return to ya eyes, so tat i may see ya smile once more, give me another chance so tat i may love u wif everythg i have once more"

sometimes there are memories that i wanna erase but i cant...differences i wanna ignore but cannot... thgs that i wanna change but fail... i hope so much that time may turn so that everythg will be right... recently i feel realli tired by everythg... theres really lots of thgs going on in my mind... thgs tat i wld rather not think abt but cant control myself...

i guess im thinking too much... but i miss the times that my mind is free n happy... when i cannt experience extreme happiness but oso not extreme sadness... =)

2007-01-09T14:32:00.000+08:00

WOOOHHOO... weiliang's van... nice??
me n gorgeous after oyur swim!!! =)
weiliang's van with rubbish bin on top!!!!http://modulonus.blogspot.com/2006/12/first-release.html

hahahaha... fun!!! does it look like a van to u?? its ah bang's bdae so we decided we had to make him feel special... then we just suddenly decided to wrap his van in toilet paper... the we added post=its to write message n pasted lotsa stuff cut out frm newspaper... like "$4.95" and "super buy!!!" haahahha... weiliang's nick says that he thanks us all for uur artistic creation hhehehehe... hall life... pros n cons... but i guess when we r old we all need some gd memories to look back on ya?? hahaha

aniwaes while im writing blog now im toking to my mum on msn... now she has learnt how to copy my emoticons and use them... then she alwaz nudges me when i dun respond... she just bought a webcam n is playing wif it... she suddenly toked abt work stuff on msn cuz her boss came in.. haha... how cool is tat man?? hahaha... well. some may say haiyah, surely there are those very sucessful women there hu r more techno savvy than my mum, i think shes damn cool cuz there is apparently many mums hu cant even switch on coms or type sms =) so tis links me to think of somethg... everythg n concept is derived from comparison... in fact our lives are shaped very much by comparing things and the thgs we decide to use for comparison...

i remember tis line from a show, as i have often said... the human was captured and was scolding the vampire "u monster!!!!"... then the vampire replied "when i turn the whole world into vampires, humans will be the monsters!!"... why do we feel that the present PAP rule is very efficient?? its derived from comparing the other countries' government and perhaps to the old times when we were ruled by the british (maybe tats why we had to learn abt british rule?)... why do one feel that a girl is very pretty?? its because she looks nicer than many less pretty girls... in countries where fat girls form the majority and are deemed to be pretty, put miss universe there n she will become an eyesore to the man...

so tis has very much to do wif how happy our lives are... when we choose the thgs we make comparisons wif, we r in fact choosing to be happy or not happy, hence i feel if we can consciously choose the correct comparisons, we will be much happier in our lives... for example, u r a person hu hates smokers... for ya sake, ya best fren cut down on smoking from one pack a day to 3/4 pack a day... perhaps to us, tis is not much difference... this is where we choose the object of comparison for judgement... say all ya frens are non smoker, but ya best fren is a smoker, comparing ya fren hu has smoked long before knowing u to the other frens in ya circle, u will never be happy until he totally quits... in this process, u might choose to ignore his efforts n ya fren on the other hand, might feel dejected and on the overall, the relationship will take a further decline in love... hence to me, the right object of comparison will be ya fren himself, that is his past n present self... if u manage to see it this way, the joy n love derived from this effort ya fren has made can bring the frenship to the next level!!

in our daily lives there exists many issues that are controversial n comparisons are wad makes this controversial... say issues like drinking, pre marital sex, prostitution, government models... we r often bounded by society's pressures to think somethg is rite or somethg is wrong but we have never realli tried to accept n understand some of the thgs we deem are not right... say guys watchg pornography, isnt that damn wrong?? but come to think of it... say a guy totally refuses to watch porn n had never had sex before marriage... even after his marriage he refuses to watch it, feeling its morally wrong n he proceeds to have sex wif his wife n has no idea at all how to go about it... after sometime, the wife might start to lose interest in sex n hence cause a permanent handicap in the couple's sexual life that might ultimately destroy the relationship... comparing a guy hu watches moderate amt of pornography n is able to let his wife enjoy making love to a guy hu totally refuses watchg n makes his wife have poor sex due to feeling obliged... which is rite n which is wrong?? say being a musician in singapore... choosing this path seems very difficult for survival in the future n one's parents might hence stop him from this path... the son might end up being a doctor with a car n everythg, yet everytime he has nothg to do n reflects on his life, he feels upset n deprived n hence unmotivated at work... in the case of a doctor, such lack of motivatn might be highly hazardous n fatal... comparing the happiness of the child's futures might bring some insight, comparing sucessful local musicians with the stereotypes might bring great insight into the decision...

perhaps there are many thgs that we have condemned or deemed impossible because of our failures to draw comparisons with alternatives and objects that will provide an angle to make the morally wrong seem rite and the impossible seem possible... i believe that there are many thgs out there that we can learn to accept n hence enrich our lives with this new founded openess... we might even get to enjoy life at a level we have never had before... perhaps this is bullshit to some of my readers... but then again, wad r u comparing this blog entry wif then?? think again, perhaps this entry wldnt be so bullshit after all =)

2007-01-06T00:21:00.000+08:00

hahahahahah... 2dae i went for recording!!!!! hehehehe... quite fun man... their equiqment is damn power... so different frm hall... but given the fact that wif the limited eq my senior was able to make such nice bkgrd music i think he realli is god mode man... 2dae i think we r the most chop chop kalipok recording grp man... super fast finish liao... woah then the song is damn high sia... sing til i sweat oso hahahha... n all the false voice switches are realli damn delicate man... hope thgs work out fine... n im soooo glad my frens are coming!!! theres xiong, huihuang, gary goh, jasmine toh, julie, veron, diana, luke, zhihao, joanna, dongxiang, my mum, my two aunties and two cousins!!! hahahahha, happeng!!! aniwae 2dae is a happy dae n i hope 2ml will be 2!!!!! going teachg seminar then sashimi buffet wif my mum!!!!! hehehehehehhe, gdnitezz to all!!!!

2007-01-01T16:57:00.000+08:00

great dae man... juz realised that i was outbidded for my stats mod and that i have forgotten to bid in the saturdae round... i feel useless man sometimes, damn!!! ggrrrrr... but i had nice spaghetti in the morning... sigh... but well... still feeling kinda lonely 2dae... haha... life without ya realli is becoming intolerable...

aniwae, i had a great dae yestrdae besides the fact that at night if juz felt damn sian to be at hm... as i boarded the train at city hall, i realised everyone was kinda alighting... sigh... but i had a great sushi buffet and ktv session... oh man... seriously suki sushi rox!!! compared to some other sushi buffets... free flow sashimi, softshell crab, tempura... omg... why eat other sushi buffets?? hahaha... n there was tis ktv, 50bucks for 3 hrs, then the room is free so we can order drinks up to amt of 50 bucks... end up each paid 12 bucks and we still had 2 kilkennys and 1 hoegarden man... its juz beside cine... quite wooluu but seriously, try it!! =)

aniwaes... i was readg my book n saw somethg that is kinda interestg... yup, aniwae... theres this real hg that happened to a 10yrs married couple... the wife is A and husband is B... A, after 10 yrs of marriage felt that B dun love him animore... they went to a counsellor and found out that B's words of commendation had been replaced by regular criticism... after counselling, B realised that A wanted those compliments and nice thgs like "i love u" and "i miss u" everydae... A's language of love were words af affirmation and B's vanishg of compliments made A felt unloved... end up B made a plan to compliment A more... he failed and stil criticised A at first but decided to try again despite feeling it was kinda hypocritical if he tried complimentg her sometimes... in the front i read that some pple's language of love and apology can take many forms, like repentance, efforts to change, sincerity or even physical intimacy... i guess the charm abt tis book is u will find somethg abt yaself... so i realise from tis bk why i make u pissed off so much sometimes when i like repeatedly forget to do thgs u say... or maybe after i apologise sometimes u will still continue arguing wif me..

missing u alot... hope ya come back soon... =)

2006-12-31T00:18:00.000+08:00

hmm... recently i have been thinking this man... n i was wonderg whether my theory abt how this thg can improve relationships between frens, lovers, parent n kids n stuff... so here goes...

recently i realise... for a relationship to go to the next step... verbal acknowledgement towards effort to a relationship is very impt... its like not onli is verbal acknowledgement impt... by wad standards shld we use to gauge effort?? lets say a mother has a lazy son who never finishes his tuition homewk... usually completing juz half of it... say after many weeks of nagging, he decided to put in more effort but he onli finished say 75% of his work... although he still has not completed his work but no doubt he made a significant effort to improve... should e the mother praise him?? or continue scolding him for having not completetd his wk again?? by the mum's standards, its perhaps simply basic requirement that his son finishes all his wk... so e 25% increase in completion is by no means somethg worth praising perhaps... however if the son remembered wad his mum sai, proceeded to try n do more but still havent complete it but he never receives praise (acknowledgemt) or even worse gets scolded again, there is a possibility this one little incident will cause his to feel there is no pt tryg... this is becuz by the son's standards, he has exceeded his own standards... so i guess we shld weigh an effort thru the person's capabilities and standards and not our own standards...

in a way we study this in new media... the acknowledgemt is wad i will call "feedback"... have there been times when we press a lift button n the light is spoilt we start feeling perturbed over whether the lift button was sucessfully pressed... so we need the button to light up... if there is a lift that alwaz have tis prob... we might not take that lift again becuz its irritatg to be in suspense whether the lift is spoilt or wad... so acknowledgemnt and feedback will bring abt appreciation and reassurance in a relationship... like a husband might feel that his wife is spendg too much but if she spends like 800 instead of 1k for that month on clothes and accessory, by the wife;s standards, she has improved... maybe the husband is silently happy abt this but if he keeps mum, his wife might be less encouraged to cut her spendg... cuz everyone loves praise...

however, this links us to start to wonder, so muz i reassure and say thanx for everythg that the other party do?? isnt it very unrealistic to praise every small thg that he or she does?? perhaps alwaz saying these thgs are very tiring 2... n maybe everytime will be unecessary... but once every while might be a gd amount i think? or izzit not?? hahaha... n we must think that if a person is expectg praise every time, the person providing praise might be very stressed becuz once praise is not given when the party is expectg it, there might be conflict... hence i feel we shld not be overly upset when we have indeed did somethg that have exceeded our own standards but are not praised... so tats all... may ya relationships benefit frm this entry!!!

2006-12-29T08:46:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! my laptop almoz died.... i cant help but feel damn fortunate that im using this very laptop to update my blog now man... yestrdae i accidentally overturned a cup of water n **splaasshhh**... the water hit the printer top n splashed over to my lappie man... i switched off power immediately then tested the laptop... cldnt press ctrl+alt+del to enter windows... woah... then i scared it short circuit... switched it off n decided to let the thg rest man... whole nite cldnt sleep at all... nowadays without com realli is handicapped man... then how to do biddg n stuff?? woah... all the horrifying consequences... then before i slept i prayed damn hard to grandpa that the laptop will recover when i wake up... i switched it on... then at the fujitsu screen there was a loud n like jammed kinda beep that went on for damn long man... then suddenly it stopped n the prompt for ctrl alt del appeared... i prayed hard n pressed... n it worked!!! =)

i remember last time when i was in army got one time somethg big oso happened... a few training blanks went off frm my weapon... i was damn freaked out... n my sergeant brought me to my officer... then he jokingly n sarcastically said "another case of accidental discharge, haha (yes, he HAHAed me), wad to do??" i was damn angry but scared 2... i prayed hard to gonggong again... the officer said he will deal wif it later n in the end nothg happened at all... i booked out safely!!! **phew**

really... if ah gong u really were there for me all along.. i juz wanna say a big thank you to u... n perhaps its oso a lesson to tell me to not onli cherish wad i have (MY laptop!!!!) but oso realise that there are pple hu r helping me without me knowing it n perhaps i shld stop to notice these pple n cherish wadever they r doing for me... so thanx all my frens n family n huever that ever lent me a hand... thanx....

2006-12-28T13:13:00.000+08:00

me and honey at parkway on xmas eve before going pitstop cafe...

this is supposed to be a dragon... and tis is a frog tat looks like julie hahaha
looks like xmas tree ya?? =) if im not wrong tis is stefanie sun hahaha

mickey plus strawberry shortcake... hehehe

blk d dog hahahahha

woah had lots to do recently... hall very bz wif sports com stuff... and xinyao stuff... n im in the finals of some national song writing competition... my senior sent me some tune n i composed lyrics and singg tune... work thru the midnite then guess wad, in the finals!!! hahhaha damn tyco hehehhee but david (my senior) hu did the music... he totally rox man... his rm wif keybd and condenser mike n his laptop programs realli makes half a recordg studio... feels gd to make music wif pros!!! hehehe 27th jan at UCC (university cultural center)... pls be there!!! can ged tics frm me!! aniwaes beetin is in the finals 2!!! hahaha

then xmas quite happening man... met huihuang and gang at board games pitstop cafe... had lotsa fun... we were playg taboo then when huihuang said i like to surf?? we all shouted "porn!!!!" wahahahaha... damn funny man... after tat we played pool n all the guys got thrashed by elaine as usual... hahha... n i was the onli guy hu won her!!! but she let water wan lah muz be hhehehehhe after tat me n elaine went to clarke quay n walked arnd... its damn nice... we had a super nice talk... hahaha wonderful xmas eve... elaine played a guessing game wif me at coffeebean... damn fun oso... dunno hw to describe hahahha..

nxt dae woke up damn late man... went to a flower exhibition wif my mum... quite nice though im not realli the flowers type of guy hahaha... but well.. after tat went back hall for steambt!!! damn nice food!!! all the meat i cut wan k... damn pro ok... ok lah minsun cut wif me hahhah... we exchanged presents n i got chocolates frm minsun... i got lotsa chocs now man... anione want to eat?? i sick now cannt eat hahaha... then we played drinking games til 3plus... shiok... i made a stupid rule must squat on chair when drinking then keep on forgettg... hahaha...

aniaes hope u guys had a merry xmas and hope to seeya guys at the concert!!!! =)

2006-12-11T00:31:00.000+08:00

yoozozzzz... hahahha actualli i kinad cock up the arrangement... as in the next entry was kinda supposed to come befor tis so... ya... for pple hu ike to ask HOWS UNI LIFE... well this is hall life =) theres supper, room hopping, abita drinking =) mugging togethr... blk D... u realli rock!! n ive made many great frens here... hahha below are some of my bez frens in hall... but i dun have mark's pic ahahaha... but aniwaes i like studied a lot wif him n we like take 3 lectrures n 2 titorials 2gethr without planning man hahaha... luv ya mark!!! hahaha

a small drinking session initiated by weiliang hahaha, aka ah bang (brother in malay!!) hahah... hes playing the guitar there and we r sharing a few drinks and having a spirit from philipines tat is like 65% alchohol or somethg?? hahaha

this is fong seng!!! the place that is making me fat hahahhaha... pj on the left, gwen then daniel... haha, gwen is hu i call twaeji (pig in korean!!!) hahaha... seriously gwen eats alot man!!! juz finish dinner then 7 plus ask me n weiliang to go fong seng liao haaha... n look at those biceps.... to think i held him to a draw at arm wrestling... ah bang said i use body weight... wadever hahaha

minsun on the left... then tien kwan, diana and veron... minsun's the cute and adorable korean gal... hahaha, taught me lotsa korean, famous for her ultra high concentration levels and mugging power, hahah... oso gets hungry easily due to bad influence... tien kwan in green.. rarely in hall but alwaz a pretty sight to behold.. hahah, still remember we meet at the movie screening hhahaha... come to think of it ya r the first person i noe in TH!! hahaha... tat diana.. a very violent gal hahaha... n veron... her massaging skills rocks!! as in massage shoulders, not sms k u IDIOTS hahahha

woah... these are my brothers from D1... back row is chanyip, soonkit n me!! front is ah bang, juz hoong n kahn!!! hahhaa... soonkit is forever having some gal in his room, famous for supper bojio!! jun hoong (striped shirt) is the cambodian lookalike haha... damn nice person... help me fiz my lappie n he knocks on my door to tell me all his cup noodles are mine!!! hahhaa love him man!!! then there is kahn... hahha remember how ya helped me wif the blinds n how we got chased away by security when we played bball when were still in orientatn?? n all the washg powder ya gave me... haha... loveya 2!!

this is me and ah bang at some blk supper tat we were forced to wear gals clothes!!! my brother seriously... thanx for being there for me whenever i feel down... but no thanx for alwaz jio me go supper hahaha... make me fat... but then again hahaha, its still better u jio me lah hahahhaa... then again, life in TH wldnt be the same without u... hahaha, tis sounds gay but heck, we were caught in the act by gwen n minsun liao ya?? hahhaa.. thanx bang, uve been a damn gd fren!!!

JUJU!!!!!!!! haha... ya r realli one of the nicest person on earth ive ever met... uve been there for me to listen be it lame jokes or sad stories... n alwa abused my my singing hahhaa... though u claim to be ambivalent n say u will "iron" my clothes, ya r stilll dddaaammnnn nice!!!! pperrllleeasssee!! hahaha... aniwaes, nxt sem we will see lotsa each other!!!! =) DEAN"S LIST!!!! hahahaha... woah write til damn shag le!!!! love EVERYONE OF YA!!! n again... i emphasize on the percentage =) hahaha

2006-12-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

heyhey pple... woah that dae when i thot that no one reads my blog... i was terribly surprised man... hahaha... i guess now is the bez time to write a blog cuz we r damn bored!!! even huihuang has a blog now man!! oh gosh!! hahaha... n for pple hu like to start a conversatn wif " HOwS UNI LIFE??"... heres a brief summary =) ... my fds guys, my hall pple, huihuang, xiong n jingang... luv ya guys!!! n of cuz u guys get like 30% of my luv ( might be overstatemt, hahaha) cuz the rest is like more or less with someone else =) ***bbBBllLuuSSHhEEss***

well this is me n elaine at PS... eatg ajisens... we were on our way to watch HAPPY FEET!! brought my cousin 2!! but i shall not post the pic in case u guys think hes my son =p... damn nice movie... a muz watch!!! aniwae, went thru n perhaps still going thru tough times... but hope thgs will turn out juz fine... =) like linjie says... if ya like a gal, put in some effort n make thgs work!! (L.C. WU 2006)... hahaha
hahhaa... me n elaine at Toysrus!! had great fun playing with toy swords, xmas hats n lotsa stuff!!! hahaha... i love toys man... n if ya guys associate liking for toys to be immature... u guys might need somemore thinking... cuz maturity is not based on superficiality... its like gwen looks kinda slim but omg... she eats like... erhem... hahha

tis is victoria!!! hahaha.... walao, i remember i kept seeing her at lecture, but she seemed to be alwaz sitting alone... so i decided to pop by and say hi... i asked her why are ya like alone again?? then i realised tat dae she was wif her frens hu were beside me n staring at me!! hahaha... aniwaes we take like 3 modules 2gether n like realli are damn good frens now!! lecture she never come i feel damn lost man hahhaa... will be seeing her very more often nxt sem since both of us are majoring psyche!! =)

this is of cuz kee yilynn... my very very gd fren... she had some rough times wif her relationship n ya... haha, tried to provide her support whenever i can n aniwaes shes a strong gal!!! =) haha, tat dae went to the hair removal thingy using strings, she was like crying becuz of the pain... funny... but she never scream... ermm... tats an example of how strong tis gal is!!! hahaha.. tok kok... but im sure a pretty gal like her will be snapped up soon!!!

this is chowloo!!! hahaha... a really gd fren 2 =) she sings like an angel seriously... hahaha... we had some unhappy times back then... thanx for keeping me as a fren =)
joanna!! my perfect match hahaha... thanx for the concern ya show me whenever im like down n out... hope i can be the listener when ya have problems 2... but gal ah... i noe as usual im naggy but...study harder k!!?? haaha... may be seeing very little of ya nxt sem since i will not be taking new media wif u but as alwaz, lets have teh peng 2gethr k!!?? aniwaes my fren huihuang, the tall tall wan tat say ya head can use as rule?? OOPPsss... hahaha... he misses u 2, hahaha

woah... tis is realliiiii my darling man... haahha... the angel that uses to wear socks n shoes for me, bring me to school... hahha... she still cooks n its still damn nice... but she was abit depressed recently cuz she was having very bad arthritis... luckily recently we managed to get a good doctor, shes feeling much bettr now after a $500 injection... im serious abt the price... but a small price to pay for popo to smile again =) will write another entry now!!! hahaha

2006-12-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

hi my dear blog... its been damn long since i visited u... tats becuz i have been realli bz these daes... not that im not bz now... but to visit u means im very frustrated now... aniwae no one will see this i guess cuz my dear blog ya r deem non existent now... if im not happy in a relationship, should i try to solve the problems?? or should i juz break up... sometimes i realli cant take it anymore... well before these 2 daes the longest period of peace i had was i guess 1 week plus??

2dae i asked her again whether we r going out after exams end, she said shes not sure... i was very scared that she juz wanted me to ask her out so i realli was unsure, yes i did ask many times but i realli was unsure n wanted to go out wif her... she said i was treatg her like she was the "her in the past"... she said she realli meant it when she said she didnt wanna go out... she said i was like digging out her past, she doesnt like to be reminded how she treated me last time... if she thinks that she treated me so badly, shldnt she be very happy i decided to commit to this relatnship again?? n the way she thinks n the thgs that piss her off... in wad way is that showing me she has matured?? when i said "yes gal?" she complained that she didnt like it cuz she didnt call for any reason... "yes gal" is like juz a greetg word u say when ya pick up the phone ya??

whatever, i dunno how long i can take this animore... thanx for listening to me again blog... thanx

2006-09-15T12:09:00.000+08:00

feeling damn pissed now la.. woken up 3 times in 2 hrs... slept at 3 last nite... realli juz wanted to take a gd nap mah... hai... now having a splittg headache again...

2dae had a damn fun lecture wan, el1101E, how can such a fun lecture onli require 1 point to bid?? haha... its a surprise package man... some of the stuff they teach inside is kindof the same as cl1101E, but i guess its realli the lecturer man... the chinese lecturer is realli... abit dull lah, haha...

watched e sweety concert wif elaine yestrdae... quite sian cuz had to queue up before the thing start, then kinda pissed elaine off cuz i sulked when i queue, cant help it lah, im not tat dying to watch sweety mah.. but " its not doing wad u love but doing somethg with ya loved one "... so well... i guess i kinda irritatg oso lah... cuz i kinda miss the feeling of suddenly waking up and find elaine in my room wif breakfast... realli very touched tat time... actualli i noe its quite outta her way to do tat but... i juz kinda need reassurances i guess, cuz im realli not confident tat she will be nice and sweet to me soon and things will go back to last time... so its not her fault i guess...

remember the last time i saw a very old couple near my house... and they were already all white haird and cant even walk and balance properly, but they are still holdg hands... damn touched lah... so pple out there, if they can be so sweet even after being together so long, please do not think tat u can slack off even if ya have been 2gethr for a long time... nvr hurts to say " i miss u ", never hurts to juz ged a rose, even if its from e market, never hurts to suddenly suggest ya wanna jog wif him, even though u noe u will end up brisk walking and waitg for him to jog back n find u, never hurts to use a sweet tone when u r pissed, and a interested tone when u r bored... perhaps one might argue " then im not being myself!!! "... sometimes it takes a little effort to love and a little effort to think back n realise he or she did somethg tat u liked and he or she din realli like... wad i say is perhaps rubbish... but well, this is MY BLOG!!! and im entitled to writg RUBBISH!!! wahahaha... as the great huihuang once said to a stranger " not happy dun read the blog lo!!! " haha... i juz love huihuang so much " ( see, ive juz put in a little effort to love ) =p, kiddg lah, i realli love my frens, =p

2006-09-11T09:29:00.000+08:00

had a great weekend man... fridae was quite shiok oso... onli had a 8am lecture then liberated liao... haha... in e eceng played volleyball for my block and to think we made it to the semis!!! haha... after tat join huihuang, jiangyuan n xiong at src to play bball... but my shootg skills not there liao... got time needa go n resharpen... then we went clementi to eat claypot chicken rice... quite nice man... but xiong's finger like taiwanese sausage now, muz be he bully beetin then self-inflict injury on himself haha... so SORRY BEETIN, xiong weiliat n huihuang hereby declare we will not bully you again, for we fear the consequences of physical impairment =p

on saturdae i was the organiser of swimming for IBG... then my partner she realli quite zhobolan man... meetg never come, then all the captains i liase one, then i told her to help me find stopwatch she oso say cannt find... walao, juz ask arnd lah... DL... grrrr... after tat went back hall to mug, startg to understand my cl1101E slightly more.. haha... but after clearg one lecture, i had lunch then dozed off... ya, CL1101E is e bez medicine to insomnia... then met my mum for steambt wan... i jio her wan lah, cuz havent been spendg much time with her... sigh...

yestrdae i went beach hut work 7-11, then chiong to ronnie's place to give her daughter n her fren tuition from 1230-230... damn hectic man... then junheng keep tellg me 60 cents plus 40 cents equal 10cents... then i took out my wallet n teach him using real coins... ended up i chiong cab to esplanade watch concert wif elaine, then realised i left my wallet at ronnie's place... somehow, elaine wasnt angry tat i was late plus i made her run all e way out to pay the cabfare... thanx gal... e concert by SYO was real nice... then we went gia gia, ate at a jap restaurant then watched "little man"... had a real nice day...

my frens and my mum who are all very worried abt me... dun worry, i noe wad i am doing... as til now, e elaine im seeing is realli kinda different from the past... has been totally faultless these 2 weeks... sweet til i cannt complain... im enjoying myself alot, juz tat im realli not sure whether this nice feeling can last how long... maybe after juz like a month more ill find her too hot-tempered again n she will find me a lousy boyfren 2?? so ill juz take things at my own pace, i can juz say if it carries on like this, elaine could really be a gal guys wld look forward 2... =) well... gonna watch bleach now... byyeee, may readers of this blog enjoy everydae of ya livesss!!!

2006-09-06T13:17:00.000+08:00

joanna's personalised msg =)
puma jzcket from elaine!!
card made by amos... present from BLK D com!!! n a cake 2 =)
surprise card from samantha n florence!!!
linjie's crad and magnet ( n chocolates, finish le cannt feature wahahha)
bu xiao xin upload 2 times haha
cool computer speakers from elaine!!! =p printer from xiong huihuang beetin n janice!!! wahahaha... sleek

heyguys realli damn long nvr write blog liao lah haha... cuz 2 many excitg things going on in hall... im in the sports comittee, tech crew comitte and im the head of my block's level one... n ive been playing like bball, table tennis, jog, handball n all sorts whenever im free... hehe, n visitg neighbours every nite!!! ( mozly gals, i muz confess wahahaha)... so weill... like last nite, i went supper wif joanna, then came back to jog wif yilynn at 12 plus, then went supper wif her n finally played table tennis til 2 plus, haha... FUN!!!

aniwae above are the bdae gifts i got this yr!!!!! thanx alot to all of you for rememberg... it was damn nice to receive 9 msgs n see 3 miss calls when u wake up... haha... ( sorry ivy again i din pick up )... n all those pressies!!! haha... i met linjie yestrdae in science fac she gave me the card n chocolates n magnets... e choc is damn nice!!! ( cuz damn ex haha )... then im happily printg notes in my room now!!! =) wearing my puma jacket in lectures.. hehe... listeng to music wif proper speakers!!! hehe, thanx alot guys... n my god suddenly wake up then found envelope at doorstep... e card from sam n florence was realli damn sweet man!!! love u gals... n e personalised msg from jo, cheap but priceless =)

on my bdae eve went out for a movie wif elaine then came back hall... quite touched tat evening... cuz elaine secretly bought a cakes from coffee club express n hid them in my hall fridge when i was away for lectures... when i came back from my shower, she made me wait outside, then i came in n tata.. candles n a bdae song... =) then nxt dae was my block theme nite... i acted for some skit tat i directed n wrote e script haha... after tat my block com gave me a cake n the card... after tat went out wif huihuang n co. to celebrate bdae on sat... haha... buay tahan they late me one hr... then i eat one mchicken for one hr... damn paiseh... after tat we went parkway to tis place sellg wine... i bought a bottle of hse white then we brought food in from everywhere!!! white wine went wif bar chor mee, sashimi, honey glazed chiz frm cold storage, burger king cheese sticks, fried oyster ( or jian )... wahahaha, damn shiok, then go biao ge wif them at kbox!!!! my happiest bdae sooo far!!! =) thanx everyone!!!

hmm then i went superstar audition... pls read n stop asking on msn haha... tis is wad happened... i queued frm 8plus til eveng 6plus, then was told im for e 10am slot 2ml n i have to queue again!!! finally i went for auditions!!! those before me kena buzzer damn fast... then came my turn... i sang a song... then they asked me if i had professional training bfore... i said im frm choir for 6 yrs... then he told me to sing another song... then he asked me have i thought of being a singer... i juz replied sorta think of but parents in s'pore are more discouragg... then they sighed n pressed e buzzer... so pple sing well n be enthu when u go auditions =)

as for me n elaine.. we r at quite a complex stage... we are holding hands n stuff but not realli together... its kinda my fault cuz im not ready to commit myself... somethg happened tat reminded me of e huge differences we have between us... so i juz wanna keep tis relatnship stress free n try to go slow... perhaps this is wad many cant understand but i believe those hu noe me well enugh noe i deal wif relationships in my own way n i noe wad im doing... so dun worry k guys =) tats all folks!!! needa go lecture now!!!!!!!